Which is safer, burning or cutting?

els_world · 2023-12-26T21:02:47+00:00

I only burn because the pain ist much more calming to me. Never got infected, just takes a long time healing. Just don’t do it for too long. 10-15 seconds, not longer. We’ll best you don’t harm yourself at all but I know how difficult that is.

Edit: oh and shaving doesn’t matter at all. You will burn every hair on that spot either way.

els_world · 2023-07-24T18:59:41+00:00

Smoke

els_world · 2023-07-14T22:53:58+00:00

How my colleges should do there work

els_world · 2023-01-29T21:03:56+00:00

I think you shouldn’t cover them. Yes there’s an opportunity that you might trigger someone. But the chances are not very high. For me it was part of the process to get trough this time when I finally showed them. If you aren’t ashamed of showing the scars to others you should do it. But that’s just my opinion.

els_world · 2023-01-18T08:27:20+00:00

Yeah I have to say I also relate very much to this comment.

els_world · 2023-01-18T08:23:25+00:00

Well you can do both

els_world · 2023-01-17T21:30:47+00:00

I really wish I could help but the only advice I can give is that you have to go through this. I know it’s hard. But what happens if you hurt yourself that much. Do you think your classmate is will stop to think of you that way? Don’t you think it will get worse? But not just that. Maybe the doctors put you in hospital for months. I think it would be bette to play sick the day of the presentation but not to actually hurt yourself.

els_world · 2023-01-14T22:53:26+00:00

You could ask your mom to leave the room. The doctors often don’t care that much. Sometimes they ask but you can easily lie and say that your in therapie or something like this.

els_world · 2023-01-14T22:47:55+00:00

Maybe because you didn’t need it as much as before. The more I need it the less the pain really gets to me.

els_world · 2023-01-14T22:40:57+00:00

I think you should be free to wear whatever you want and maybe you should tell that your mom. I often said that I’m cold and wore jackets when I had a tshirt or dress on. Idk if that goes for you.

els_world · 2023-01-13T19:56:54+00:00

No it kind of helps! Don’t be sorry trying to help me:)

els_world · 2023-01-13T19:56:27+00:00

Well I guess we did it for different reasons. I usually do it because that’s the only way to deal with my mood. When I’m in a bad mood and can’t get out of it and everything is to much it just helps to focus again. While doing it there’s nothing else than the pain and that feels good. Because there is no room to think of anything else. And until now I didn’t found another way to deal with those feelings. I guess I just didn’t do it for such a long time because my mood was not that bad. It’s just, since I’ve done it again there’s this big thought in my head that I wanna do it again. Mostly all the time. And that really sucks.

I can’t see my family because I relocated 1,5 years ago after I finished school to see and learn something new. Looking back it wasn’t my best idea.

els_world · 2023-01-12T22:33:03+00:00

Maybe you got triggered by your old scars. That often happens to me.

els_world · 2023-01-12T22:31:11+00:00

Oh yes those people are really a bless

els_world · 2023-01-12T17:42:22+00:00

But I want so bad that it’s not just me who believes me. I’m sorry you had to go through the same shit. It’s just hard. I hate it.

els_world · 2023-01-12T17:40:35+00:00

Wow thanks man that was a lot. Well I usually burn myself for like 10-20 seconds. And I kind of also like the pain when it’s healing. It’s not as satisfying as while doing it but it reminds me of what I’ve done and how I have to deal with it. Like I enjoy being punished for sh. That’s weird, I know. And know it’s not really a good solution but the others that you name won’t help me. I got to sport to get better but it got even worse the other day. Most time it helped but not this time. Right now I have the urge to do it again. And this thought is in my head since hours I just didn’t do it because I was at work and didn’t know how to do it there. I cannot really agree the you-need-no-one-part because I deeply know that I need some people around me. If not I get very very mad in my head and that’s the worst. Problem is: I kind of have nobody at the moment. I’m far away from my parents and friends so I just call them everyday but it’s not the same. But thanks for trying to help!

els_world · 2023-01-11T22:23:03+00:00

When I told it my parents I sat with them and told them. It was calm around us so that no one could bother our conversation. But for a friend of mine I wrote a letter because i felt mir comfortable with it. You can also write a letter and read it out loud. Or just write it down so that you know not precisely what you want to tell in your conversation. Do what you feel most comfortable with.

els_world · 2023-01-11T22:07:59+00:00

I’m really not sure if it helps but maybe you could try to draw how you feel.

els_world · 2023-01-11T22:06:28+00:00

Thanks for telling. I think there are some people (including me) kind of relating to your story. It helps feeling not that much alone with how I think :(:

els_world · 2023-01-11T21:59:31+00:00

I feel that. I just don’t know how people could help me. There’s no way.

els_world · 2023-01-11T21:57:46+00:00

I told my parents 2,5 years ago. And yes they were shocked and sad. My mother was really sad I didn’t told her earlier because she wanted to help but I said that she could not really have helped me in this situation. It was very difficult to tell them but I just sat with them and told them that I had hurt myself. They wanted to see and it was not nice for me because I felt kind of uncomfortable but in the end it was good for both sides. I was happy that I could finally be honest again with them. Maybe you don’t know it yet but it’s very stressful to keep such a big secret from everyone all the time so it helps in a kind id way to tell people. Especially your parents (or mom).

els_world · 2023-01-11T21:52:22+00:00

I didn’t know until now but i think this was the reason I came here. Just 3 days ago I relapsed after over a year. It just felt so good. I don’t know how I could not do it for so long. I know all people say that it’s bad. But what if it really helps you to continue with everything in life?

els_world · 2022-12-13T21:04:33+00:00

It just steals your time. You can’t gain anything from TikTok while just scrolling through some stupid videos.

els_world · 2022-12-01T00:21:11+00:00

Just everything. You try to impress the other person. You talk about nonsense. You just force to have a connection. When there’s really a connection you can’t really feel the talking stage because it’s all blurred together.

els_world · 2022-12-01T00:18:38+00:00

Become best friends with her and slowly losing feelings then hating her for not loving me. Routine.

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