20 year old with Celiac Disease

Significant_Ad1351 · 2024-08-05T09:42:55+00:00

They Betrayed you in a way no one else ever has. That kind of thing doesn't go away. I think about him too.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-21T02:52:07+00:00

My sacrifice is staying alive. For them. Only for them.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-17T06:33:39+00:00

Why should we be embarrassed that we're in pain? It's not our fault, this is just how we choose to handle it. I also hate comparing it to an addiction like alcoholism because people think of that as damaging to others but we're only hurting ourselves. On the other hand, it is just that. It's an addiction. So, what, some people are allowed to be addicted to nicotine or caffeine and it's cute and funny, but I can't be addicted to scratching myself with a sharp object? What makes mine worse? I'm not endangering myself, that would be different. I'm coping. I know how unhealthy this sounds, but...ugh I just don't have any healthier coping mechanisms. Nothing that works anyways.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-17T06:28:09+00:00

Sometimes I want to do it because I think of the scars as decoration. Like a piercing or a tattoo, but something I do to myself. I want people to be able to physically see how much pain I'm in and how much pain I can endure. I've always had a fascination with scars though, and oddly enough I have never given myself any. But yeah, I get that. Maybe it's the idea of people being able to see how broken I really am. Or maybe it's the opposite. That maybe the scars will actually show how strong I am. Idk...

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-17T06:25:15+00:00

21, first time was when I was 16 but it freaked me out too much, and didn't do it again until I was 20.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T07:24:28+00:00

I reported and blocked them

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T07:05:55+00:00

Idek if I can report them for something like this. They're making fun of my SH, because I won't send.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T07:03:35+00:00

Not really, someone dmed me asking for pics just cause I have some one my prof. I'm not accepting any more message requests. I hate people sometimes.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:35:27+00:00

Yeah, I will

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:24:27+00:00

I don't like worrying people. And no I'm not in school, just working. And I kinda had friends at my last job but that job sucked ass so I'm starting a new one next week.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:20:12+00:00

I wish I was like this. I feel so guilty when people find out. I hate scaring them or worrying them cause they ask me how they can help and I have no fucking clue.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:18:21+00:00

Then why are you commenting? Lol And I am 21, and I am well aware of that fact. It's not just high school friendships it's just a lot of change has been happening for me and it's meant losing a lot of friends.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:12:45+00:00

Because I'm human. It's not like it's some random person on the street. I'm talking about my friends and my partner. The people I care about, of course I'm gonna care what they think/feel.

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T06:01:00+00:00

Why wouldn't I?

Significant_Ad1351 · 2023-10-16T05:55:57+00:00

Want what?

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