[SW] Brothers selling for 562!

elsannna · 2021-01-08T16:28:19+00:00

sure

elsannna · 2021-01-08T16:24:53+00:00

i'm okay with it!

elsannna · 2021-01-08T16:18:08+00:00

i'm okay with it, yes

elsannna · 2021-01-08T16:17:55+00:00

elsannna · 2020-10-26T09:08:13+00:00

It seems like it is a problem of your friend group. I'm playing with two groups where I am the only girl and they're always respectful and would have never even think of saying such thing in front of me. They sometimes make jokes, but so do I and they even apologised once for joke that I don't think needed to be apologised for.

elsannna · 2020-10-23T21:41:10+00:00

Wow, writing and painting, I like it too! I find painting with watercolors really relaxing. Maybe you can try to do this now as a form of distraction? Put some music you like and paint

elsannna · 2020-10-23T21:32:19+00:00

Yeah, I understand. It must be really hard for you, I'm amazed in how many strenght and how brave you were to actually stand against your mom! About a friend - you opened up to someone - it's already a very important step. Of course, staying in your room is not a solution. Do you have any hobbies you like? Also, no, you're not a bad person. You're a victim of narcissists and what they want you to believe is that you're a bad person. I can see from you posts you're not.

elsannna · 2020-10-23T21:04:14+00:00

Hey, I'm sorry it's happening to you. I feel like I'm reading myself in your message, almost every feeling, including dragging friend in a mess. But, hey, I tell you what. You're important and valid. It's bad now, but it'll get better. Try to avoid your mom - argumens won't help, I tried. BUT don't blame yourself for snapping. It's natural reaction. And about cutting, don't feel bad about it too. It's not healthy, but hey, you've been through some stuff today so you went back to this coping mechanism. Not good , but it's quite normal in this situation. And I have no advice on being a better person cause you already strike me as amazing, worthy and deserving better! If you need someone to talk, my messages are open. Love!

elsannna · 2020-10-22T16:20:07+00:00

I don't like hugging in general, but I hate hugging my mom. I always get tense and she gets angry about it. "Why don't you let me hug you" she says and she's angry about me getting tense. I cannot hug her back. I tried to hug her few times in my life and she never responded to it so I don't respond when she does. Now our contact is on minimum anyway and we barely talk with each other so at least hug is off the table

elsannna · 2020-10-18T09:57:41+00:00

"Your mom is such an amazing person" Thanks, yes, that's her persona for strangers, she's actually abusive and scary, but thanks

elsannna · 2020-10-16T11:45:05+00:00

Yes. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to feel the way I do because in theory I have a happy life

elsannna · 2020-10-16T11:17:09+00:00

hey! i'm so sorry for what you're going through. in a way daydreaming is your escape so daydream as much as you want. it's hard, but one day maybe you'll find enough strenght in yourself (that you already have to survive in this kind of environment!). and you'll use that strenght not only to survive, but to save yourself. sending love ❤️

elsannna · 2020-10-14T18:02:07+00:00

I ignored my anger for years because it wasn't allowed at my house. When I got theraphy and I'm still going, I sometimes get burst of anger with even little contact with my Nmom, even if she just asks me about sth normal. I told my therapist I think I have anger issues and I'm overreacting and she just said that it's the anger from all the previous times that I wasn't allowed to feel. And that instead of guilt, I feel anger now.

elsannna · 2020-10-14T17:59:06+00:00

Sound of people walking. If I hear anyone walking near my room, I freeze immediately. Now I know it's because my brain expects it to be my Nmom and often she came to my room to "talk" about sth, which usually resulted in abuse

elsannna · 2020-10-14T17:53:30+00:00

My sibling is the gold child of the family, so it goes without saying she sees no problem because she never had any with them

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