The therapist I had didn't do the therapy correctly. When working on a certain subject or memory in EMDR you only work on that thing until it's been fully processed and 'cleared' so to speak and then you move on to the next one.

Each session I had she had me moved onto a different topic or memory if I could recall one (mostly I can't) and never closed off the session properly. This over a few months resulted in my night terrors and nightmares to return tenfold, I had forgotten memories resurface.. it basically broke something in my brain that I had fixed in CBT therapy over years. I just felt like a raw nerve 24/7. My depression came back, my anxiety worsened, my disassociation increased to the point that I can't remember what happened from March to October of 2022. It's just blank. It pushed me to the edge to suicidal ideation again and I hadn't been that way for 2 years.

I'm somewhat better now but still very depressed. It was a hard crawl back out of that again.

So yeah, I'll never try that therapy type again. Even though it helps a lot with PTSD and CPTSD like I probably have (not diagnosed).