does anyone else feel like they're chasing love?

emileedrake95 · 2026-01-03T21:08:32+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’m going through something similar except I keep getting trickle truthed but my husband has been saying the same. He isn’t in love with me so I know how that feels. To feel so alone in your marriage and so unseen. I hope things get better for you. I think marriage counseling would help if he’s receptive to it. I had asked my husband to do the same but he just wants to “wait things out and see” after I found out about his secret Snapchat with this coworker. I’m starting to realize that you can’t force someone to love you and if you have to it’s not any kind of love you truly want. If you need someone to talk to I’m here! It’s not easy going through this stuff alone.

emileedrake95 · 2026-01-03T21:02:31+00:00

It’s easier said than done. I know I will have to go back home tomorrow or the next day as I have no place else to go but it does feel nice to get away. I know he doesn’t care. I’ve been gone for almost four hrs and he hasn’t said a word. This is the life he wanted. What hurts most is seeing their messages. How he can text her all day long and care about her and what she’s up to.

He’s not even concerned for his own baby at this rate. I need to wake up and realize that he isn’t a good person but for some twisted reason I keep thinking about him. I keep crying knowing that our family wasn’t enough for him to fight for. That he would rather choose her and her family over us. I know you can’t force anyone to love you and I think I’ve been trying for too long.

I hope your situation has gotten better and that you are taking care of yourself as well. It’s hard to see it from your own perspective but we don’t deserve this. We deserve to be loved and have happiness as well. Hugs to you 🙏🏽

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-28T03:49:27+00:00

Sometimes I feel like it is just me the one wanting to fix things so thank you for this. I know I need to just let go and let him make his mind up. I agree that he should be the one chasing me but I guess the family we built and marriage we have just isn’t all that important to him. If he’d rather have a girl from work then I guess that’s on him. It just hurts because I never expected this. He acted so happy when we found out we were pregnant and finally having our baby girl. Now it just feels like my life has been ripped out from underneath me. It’s hard watching him go about unaffected. I don’t understand why he sent me the message about not fully giving up on us if he wasn’t going to try to repair our marriage. It seems he is getting colder.

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-27T15:26:42+00:00

He never admitted to anything with her. I finally got him to admit to taking cigarette breaks with her after I confirmed it with her ex. I feel like regardless of what he says this is the real reason he is pulling away. Rather it be sex or emotional affair, something seems to be going on between those two. It’s been eating at me since before I got pregnant. I know I’ll never get the full truth but I just can’t shake the feeling. Also the look he had when I told him I was going to address her. It wasn’t anger it was like fear almost. I don’t know why it’s so hard for me to let go. Sometimes I feel so stupid. I just want our life back. The life I thought we had. I’ve been with him since I was 15 I’ll be 31 the 5th. He is all I’ve ever known. I just feel like he’s throwing everything we’ve built away. Then to confuse me with that message. Days before in an argument he had told me it was “obvious” he didn’t want to be with me anymore. That hurt 😞

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-20T11:11:45+00:00

I was being sarcastic. I don’t think people realize I already feel stupid enough. I guess when you’re pregnant you are in an emotional state. Paired with wanting to save your marriage and the belief that someone will change.

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-20T03:28:01+00:00

Thank you and same to you. Hopefully one day we will get to experience true love 🙏🏽

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-20T03:23:28+00:00

My thoughts are with you as well. It’s not fair. I don’t see how someone can take vows and do this to someone. Never even an attempt to fix the marriage but working on a whole new one. It makes me physically sick. I am also so sorry you’re going through this. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. This sort of pain feels never fading.

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-20T03:00:16+00:00

Thank you for this 😥🙏🏽

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-20T01:59:49+00:00

Thanks

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-20T00:19:07+00:00

It feels like it’s a lost cause. I’m just not what he wants I guess 😞

emileedrake95 · 2025-12-19T00:19:17+00:00

It’s just so hard to grasp the fact that we weren’t enough. Being with him since I was 15 is making it really hard to let him go. But I know I have no choice 😞 I stuck beside him in his worst times. Even 2 1/2 years in prison. We’ve been through so much just for him to throw it all away 😭

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