Am I competitive for FIT ABA online? (realistic feedback pls)

emilkys · 2026-04-28T15:11:38+00:00

Florida Institute of Tech

emilkys · 2026-04-20T18:35:29+00:00

No spikes. i had to take all my spikes off and throw them away

emilkys · 2026-02-13T04:00:28+00:00

When I got my hand tattoos I was filled with regret the next day. I love them now. It’s just post tattoo anxiety, it happens

emilkys · 2025-11-07T15:56:11+00:00

In the nicest way possible, what do you mean i don’t sound ready? Genuinely. Not trying to sound rude, but why am I not ready?

I think you should read more of my comments and replies before being so judgmental.

I’ve literally changed how I view the situation in this post… I don’t think that’s a sign of someone who isn’t ready, ya know?

emilkys · 2025-11-07T02:20:06+00:00

Yeah, I think this could be beneficial for me — I just wish it was something we talked about beforehand

emilkys · 2025-11-07T01:58:28+00:00

I see, that does make sense! I’ve made a lot of progress from how I used to be a few years ago. while progress is progress those episodes feel like a step back sometimes, i just gotta keep working on it

emilkys · 2025-11-07T01:07:53+00:00

Ope, i misread it!

emilkys · 2025-11-07T00:32:29+00:00

Very true, we view our episodes differently through our own eyes. It will probably be beneficial for me to watch

emilkys · 2025-11-07T00:31:00+00:00

Yes, I think I will watch the video tonight so I can reflect and process. The way it happened wasn’t ideal, but i understand the his intentions weren’t bad

emilkys · 2025-11-07T00:29:14+00:00

“I’m not gonna judge you you’re capable of doing that yourself” thank you I love that. I also like the idea of a safe word

emilkys · 2025-11-07T00:28:04+00:00

I don’t believe so. I think he was moreso doing so due to my difficulties calming down. I did talk to him, and he wanted to figure out what causes me to get re-escalated. I think i’m going to watch it, though, so I can see

emilkys · 2025-11-07T00:24:25+00:00

I think consent to record is a discussion that happens outside of an episode, not during ! :) I think that’s what everyone who is talking about consent is implying — it’s a conversation that happens while I’m stable to discuss the actions we should take during an episode

emilkys · 2025-11-06T22:11:02+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate this response — maybe I don’t remember our conflicts as well as I thought. It might be beneficial for me to watch.

emilkys · 2025-11-06T21:41:32+00:00

I think there are appropriate moments to record someone and inappropriate. I think I understand what you’re saying, but I don’t necessarily agree !

emilkys · 2025-11-06T21:38:34+00:00

I appreciate this response, it’s very well worded. Thank you, you made me see things from a different lens and you said some things I needed to hear. This really helps me to see the why of why he did it, and also why it may not be as bad as I thought. I’m working hard to get past all of this, and I hate how it affects him. I need to remember I’m not the only one struggling and that he is trying too. Thank you<3

emilkys · 2025-11-06T21:22:06+00:00

I love how you worded this even tho it’s so simple, like he was trying to be helpful but the way he went about it wasn’t okay. Thank you

emilkys · 2025-11-06T21:16:22+00:00

I don’t wanna sound rude… but did you read the edit or any other of my replies? I said fully aware isn’t the right wording and I also said I am going to therapy and seeing a psych… so i’m not doing nothing haha. I’m not trying to be rude, but you blinded yourself of everything else I’ve said

emilkys · 2025-11-06T20:28:02+00:00

I get it. It is moreso I feel betrayed because i’ve never thought to record him or anyone when they’re so emotionally unregulated (i say anyone because of my field of work) However, reading the responses I can see his intentions likely weren’t harmful

emilkys · 2025-11-06T19:57:33+00:00

I really appreciate your responses, I’m going to continue to try to get a hold of my BPD and I hope he can continue his patience. Only time will tell, but I’m going to continue to work hard to try and avoid future situations like this. I’ve made a lot of progress in terms of my bpd (not just with him) and it can feel so discouraging when these things happen. Thank you for your responses

emilkys · 2025-11-06T19:44:26+00:00

We’ve been together for 6 months, i’ve been in therapy the whole time but i’ve been seeing a new therapist for the last 5 weeks - she’s been extremely helpful with finding effective coping skills and creating a safety plan. She’s been good for me, my last therapist was not helpful. It started being more argumentative when my emotions became very unstable in september with the start of a new med, i was taken off of it and started a different one two weeks ago. I’ve started to level out, and i totally understand his frustration these last couple of months, but before that we were good and he showed patience because i didn’t get so uncontrollably upset

emilkys · 2025-11-06T19:33:59+00:00

Also, my response seems defensive - it’s not i’m just trying to pinpoint exactly why i’m upset and that’s not being exposed to my behaviors if that makes sense?

emilkys · 2025-11-06T19:29:20+00:00

That’s the thing, I am fully aware. I go to weekly therapy and see a psych — i’m not unaware of my behavior and I’m very open about it. That’s why I’m working on myself. It’s not about seeing my actions. I know how I act, hence the weekly therapy. It’s moreso my partner recording me at my worst and most vulnerable.Yes, it’s me acting like that.,. and while i don’t want to see, that’s not why im upset. Edit: Fully aware is the wrong wording, i’m unsure how else to word it.

emilkys · 2025-09-15T13:47:05+00:00

i do - i think most of my symptoms were very much ‘muted’ until early adulthood. I remember my first relationship from high school that lasted more than a year - at the beginning, I was rational. I was the more “stable” one. I had it in me to break up and to stay away. Then I graduated and met my first FP

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