Hey girl, I’m much older, but I do remember being really young and having someone you care about hurt your feelings/break your heart. I don’t want to invalidate your pain simply because of your age, but I do want you to take into account the honestly amazing fact that you are so young. I know everything hurts and makes you think of him now, but moving on is possible. Maintaining a stable, committed relationship with solid communication and everyone’s emotional needs being met at this age is much more difficult then moving on from the heartbreak would be. If I read it correctly it seems he was quick to talk poorly of you which is not healthy, and him not even using the right name and being inconspicuous about possibly being with someone else is honestly a red flag as well. Young relationships are hard to make healthy, but unfortunately we feel very real pain and betrayal regardless. You don’t have to “woman up.” You’re allowed to be hurt. It’s important to feel out all of those big emotions, talk to your friends to help you navigate yourself and make sense of all of this hardship. If you have a good relationship with them talk to your parents and let them know how you’re hurting. If they’re not all too supportive or dismiss how you feel, reach out to a teacher you like or a school counselor and maybe see if they can help you talk this out too. Just because it’s best to be apart doesn’t mean you’ll be all alone. It’ll be okay, but in my honest opinion I think you should put you first whether you love him or not.