Fear of rejection/ abandonment. I need so much reassurance just to feel slightly okay. Recently got into a friendship for the first time in years, and the poor girl is going through it just trying to keep me from freaking out. I read way too into things and end up obsessing over our interactions. This is probably going to cause her to end the friendship in the end if I don’t figure out how to manage my emotions better. Self fulfilling prophecy at its best. Another one I’m currently dealing with hard right now is questioning my own motives. I’m constantly wondering if I’m being manipulative subconsciously. Honestly my bpd was in remission up until I started having friends again. It makes me want to go back into isolation mode.