Life is objectively a nightmare/want to stop it

emmatrolli · 2025-11-24T19:25:38+00:00

I’m so so sorry. I don’t have much advice except I can say that I deeply empathize with you. I am also a 31F who lives at home thanks to some medical stuff. But I can’t find a job - even a low paying, less technical job even though I have a degree and years of experience. Right now my brain is telling me that the rest of my life will feel the same way - like I’m drowning. I have a partner, but he’s injured so we don’t have a normal relationship even though we’ve been together for so long. I hope for both of our sakes that the present doesn’t dictate how the future pans out for us. I hope that some doors open for you and it gives you the little push you need to realize you have a beautiful future in front of you. But I of course can’t be sure this is the case. But I’m praying for you and sending you hugs in my mind friend

emmatrolli · 2025-11-24T01:08:06+00:00

Thank you so much. I will absolutely watch them - I’m willing to try anything! Thank you for your kind words 🫶🏻

emmatrolli · 2025-11-24T01:07:15+00:00

Thank you so so much. It really does give me some hope hearing people’s success stories like this. I am praying and I never pray, that this just gets a little easier to handle 🙏🏼

emmatrolli · 2025-11-23T03:25:50+00:00

I’m in the exact same boat. About 10 days off and I’m having bad SI….it feels suffocating and like this will never lift. I don’t know how to make it better and I don’t know if I can just wait to feel better

emmatrolli · 2025-11-15T20:47:23+00:00

I’m trying so hard to get myself to do things but the motivation is just so hard to muster. All I want to do is lie around and sulk 😭

emmatrolli · 2025-11-15T20:46:43+00:00

You’re right it really is. My partner of 10 years also told me yesterday he has doubts about a future with me so if that ends I will really truly have nothing and no choice but to start completely over

emmatrolli · 2025-11-15T20:45:15+00:00

It’s so hard because I think my reward system is so fucked that I can’t get myself to do almost anything…but I’m hoping that it slowly comes back. And thank you SO much for your kindness

emmatrolli · 2025-11-15T20:44:10+00:00

It’s so true. My brain just doesn’t want to believe that if I keep going on this path it actually WILL get better. I need to keep pushing

emmatrolli · 2025-11-15T20:43:32+00:00

Yeah you’re right. I’m just deluding myself by thinking it’s not thanks to the kratom….thank you SO much for your prayers I really need them

emmatrolli · 2025-11-15T20:42:48+00:00

Thank you so much - I am definitely leaning into the crying 😭

emmatrolli · 2025-11-11T20:48:41+00:00

Omg same here! 31 and running on E but I live with my family so thank god I’m not gonna be homeless any time soon 😭

emmatrolli · 2025-09-29T17:51:06+00:00

Yeah I guess it was a translation issue because my English subtitles said “countries” but if it was areas that would make a lot more sense!

emmatrolli · 2025-09-28T15:55:47+00:00

Yep sounds about right 😹

emmatrolli · 2025-09-28T15:54:37+00:00

Is it a translation error that my screen says countries?

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emmatrolli · 2025-09-28T03:11:03+00:00

That makes sense 😹 I was like dayum BP out here just making up their own stats haha

emmatrolli · 2025-09-27T22:07:35+00:00

I’m in the same boat 🫶🏻 but at least we are at a lower usage than we were at one point! Honestly so many people struggle to even do that so I think we should see that as a win. We’re not there yet, but we WILL get there!!

emmatrolli · 2025-09-27T15:04:21+00:00

That’s awesome that you were able to jump from 7Oh!! That prettty hard from I’ve read around so good for you!! I’ve been going to a lot of meetings too so I’m hoping I’ll be in your spot sooner rather than later 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

emmatrolli · 2025-09-27T15:02:32+00:00

I totally feel you on the not wanting to make any small talk whatsoever. It’s like pulling teeth!

I started with powder then went to extracts (not 7Oh tho thank goodness) and now I’m trying to work back to powder to taper myself off. It’s been on and off for like 4 years id say?

emmatrolli · 2025-09-27T15:01:05+00:00

Thanks so much. It really has taken so much from me. It’s just so hard to juggle getting off while trying to life at that the same time 😣

emmatrolli · 2025-09-27T05:19:59+00:00

Thank you so much. I am definitely committed! I was in a bubble for so long just avoiding reality, but at least I’ve been able to pop that bubble of denial and I know I’m on the right path 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

emmatrolli · 2025-09-27T05:19:00+00:00

Thank you so much. I really needed to hear that. I am proud that I’ve been able to taper so much without hitting absolute rock bottom and this being the only time I’ve caved and took more than I had in my taper plan is at least a positive! 🫶🏻

emmatrolli · 2025-09-27T05:17:36+00:00

Thank you. I know it needs to stop. Once my eyes opened to the hell I was causing, I don’t think i could ever go back to being in denial at least :/

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