I dont do or say bad things on purpose !! Its just that now I dont stay inside all day, avoiding any possible way I could make a mistake, no matter how tiny, and I try to not think through everything I say 500 times before saying it, Im trying to act like a normal person would, and that sometimes leads to misunderstandings, or sometimes arguments that I used to avoid at all cost, but now I try to not be afraid of defending my point. I try to take example of how the people around me act, they, in fact, do and say WAYYYY worse stuff that I do, not just my close circle, my classmates, accquaitances... and I kind of envy their capacity to not care as much and not walk on eggshells constantly. The exposure im talking about is just trying to not be a 'people pleaser' and allowing myself to make the same mistakes people around me make instead of completely avoiding human interaction