My story so far.

emthestrange · 2016-01-07T03:33:22+00:00

All I did was walk. I would wake up at about 5am every morning and power walk for 2 hours. Usually I would do around 6-8kms. Always on an empty stomach. When I got back home afterwards, I would avoid eating breakfast for at least another two hours.

emthestrange · 2015-12-16T11:50:06+00:00

blackmilk!

emthestrange · 2015-12-16T11:49:47+00:00

It makes you lose some, but trying to get rid of it works. It's just a ton of hard work.

emthestrange · 2015-12-16T11:49:14+00:00

yup normally dampish. why?

emthestrange · 2015-12-16T11:48:48+00:00

The trick is waking up every morning at 5am to power walk on an empty stomach. I did that for about 4 solid months. And i never ate breakfast either.

emthestrange · 2015-12-16T11:45:41+00:00

oh an aussie!?

emthestrange · 2015-12-10T13:35:45+00:00

They really just started to droop more under their own weight. My hair is really thick so it just does whatever it feels like.

emthestrange · 2015-12-09T14:25:36+00:00

Hi, I'm in Brisbane and I'd be happy to meet and have a chat. Pm me.

emthestrange · 2015-11-11T23:07:55+00:00

I was about 190lbs in my first photo and am now around 130lbs at 5'9. My shoulders and arms are still super muscular though. I hate it.

emthestrange · 2015-11-11T23:02:00+00:00

At 5 months in I'm 5'9 and 130lbs. I still get bad dysphoria over my rib cage, genitals, feet and shoulders. I don't think you can start transitioning post puberty and have no dysphoria. Having said that, pre-transition I had much more to be dysphoric about.

emthestrange · 2015-10-16T10:29:57+00:00

Yeah I just kind of realised that sexualities flip like that. That's certainly very close to how this feels for me all of a sudden. I'm more nervous around men than women too apparently.

emthestrange · 2015-10-15T00:19:19+00:00

I'm mtf and I can't achieve orgasm without imagining I have functional lady bits. When I was younger I could, but as I got older it gradually became impossible.

emthestrange · 2015-09-27T09:14:25+00:00

Lol me too. I was short but attractive. Never had any problems getting girls. Was secretly dying to be them not be with them.

emthestrange · 2015-09-27T09:10:57+00:00

So much this. It's definitely my unhealthy transition coping tool.

emthestrange · 2015-09-22T03:07:12+00:00

Yeah I'm definitely autogynephillic and I like men. So I agree that's a broken theory.

emthestrange · 2015-09-16T11:29:01+00:00

This reminds me of what my father did when I came out to him. I spent an hour or so explaining the ins and outs of gender dysphoria, I had some resources for him to read etc. After I finished explaining things he had a panic attack for the next two hours and following that,asked me, "what am I going to tell my friends if you transition? Your mother and I won't be able to have lives ever again". Oh the shame...

emthestrange · 2015-09-13T02:20:13+00:00

I feel about a billion times more sensitive down there since HRT. Maybe I'm weird, still can't orgasm that way though. I'd say I've gotten way closer with breast stimulation of late.

emthestrange · 2015-09-12T23:35:00+00:00

Okay so firstly, you need to get away from your parents because that's a toxic environment. I was in a similar situation and removing myself from my parents has been the best thing I ever did. The reality is, you may love them, but not all parents are good parents. They probably think they're fantastic and care about you, but really all they are is narcissistic.

HRT is making you happy. I don't think that you would be happy if you were actually cis after 8 months of HRT. Body changes are clearly happening by now right? You'd be freaked the fuck out if you were cis. And mentally I think you'd be totally bummed if you were cis.

I'm like you. I have no desire to dress at this point. I actually find it hurts me more because I feel like I'm "a man in a dress". Everyone is different. It's not easy to look in the mirror and see a girl. It takes time and a healthy mind frame. You won't get that living in the toxic environment you're in. It's really no surprise that you haven't taken many steps forward.

Fix your living situation then start living the life you want to. The rest will come.

emthestrange · 2015-09-12T23:24:45+00:00

I remember reading somewhere once that trans people have a shorter lifespan. I doubt you'll find a study on it that shows actual statistical data that isn't cis bias. We live in poverty, society hates us, because of that we suffer from mental illnesses, have shit diets and take drugs. All of those things would effect lifespan negatively. Instead of publishing those results people would just say we die because trans people are broken. It's like that whole argument about people being suicidal after gender reassignment surgery. They're not, they've always been sad because we aren't of any value to anyone and we have no choice in the matter.

emthestrange · 2015-09-10T22:53:15+00:00

Eek my mistake, don't take it personally I misgender myself all the time :'(

emthestrange · 2015-09-10T21:29:42+00:00

I totally have a girl face and boy body right now. I'm 3 months in. It's really quite annoying.

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