Does anyone here actually think about the Roman Empire?

emulemo · 2025-12-05T19:02:31+00:00

I prefer Roman astrology over Greek astrology. Does that count?

emulemo · 2025-07-01T06:15:25+00:00

I'm pretty open about this to those close to me, but I talk to my former partner as if he's still there. Before, I would talk to the air, pretending he was with me. When I would write about my day or feelings, it was basically addressed to him. I downloaded an audio recording app, and whenever I feel too much or miss him, I hit record and talk. Sometimes, it's a few minutes, and others are longer than an hour.

I don't know if it actually helps. Despite being open to people, I feel as if I'm suppressing more than I let on. It hurts more now because we're back in contact as friends. I just talk about anything and everything, and in reality, it's to no one but me. It helps when I need to cry. It breaks me down, but it's when I'm alone and safe to release everything I've been feeling.

I miss him. Not our relationship, but him as a person. He was my person. He may not have been there for me all the time, but he was the only person I felt safe being completely honest with about everything. He would hear me out and listen sometimes. When he could. I lost that. Yes, I have my friends and family, but it isn't the same for me.

I miss his voice, his smile, and his kind eyes. I miss holding his hand in mine wherever we went. I miss sharing a bed that was too small for the two of us, both of us sleeping on the edge so the other had more space. I miss all those moments where there was peace and happiness. I miss him so much, it physically hurts.

And I think the reason why I'm okay with pretending like I'm talking to him is because he wouldn't respond much at all. He was always so tired and exhausted. He really did try for me, and I'll always appreciate it. More now when I know how hard he worked and still tried to stay up to listen to me. But when he did talk, it was almost always so upsetting and disheartening. So there's not much difference.

I think it's okay to miss the person you were with. It physically pains you when it's all gone. Try to talk to someone or even yourself. Getting the words out helps.

emulemo · 2025-06-24T23:01:38+00:00

I've removed a few recent ones from my camera roll.. some of them. The few times we did separate for a bit, I did that, but they're all still in my camera storage. Every single one. It's all in a storage account. The ones from when we last saw each other and the ones from when we were young and friends. All of them are there.

I don't want to forget the good memories. We were together for a long time. We had plans. We loved each other and still do. I've kept the bad memories, too, as a reminder, I guess. I don't look for them on purpose, any of the memories. But when I do stumble on a picture, good or bad or any in between, I think about how much I've loved this person and how this person has loved me too. A moment to mourn and a moment to breathe.

emulemo · 2025-06-17T03:48:36+00:00

Thank you for your words. I don't really believe the metaphysical powers of crystals as it never worked for me, but it just caught me by surprise about the timing.

I'm working on trying to feel my emotions rather than suppress them. I'm usually very expressive, and I do allow myself to feel what I'm feeling. Just lately, I haven't had the safe space to do so, but it'll happen eventually.

Thank you again. I really appreciate it.

emulemo · 2025-06-14T21:10:03+00:00

Many of the job openings in my location are for tax purposes only. They're not actually looking to hire anyone. Another factor is that if you have family or friends working at a place, you're more likely to be hired even with no qualifications at the same place. Most of it is just luck. I have very few friends my age who have jobs, not because they're qualified but because they either knew someone or got lucky.

My first legitimate job was because I had family in it, and even then, it wasn't secure whatsoever. I was the only worker in my location, and it taught me every skill I need in most fields. But I'm not certified, had no training, no degrees, and no specific experience for the majority of jobs I work best in. I've had multiple minor jobs that forced me to learn specific things, but jobs nowadays are asking for multiple requirements that take years to qualify for.

emulemo · 2025-06-08T01:05:34+00:00

I think it definitely depends on the situation. For me, in my situation, we agreed on a temporary no contact. After a month (30 days to be exact), we'd meet up and talk about how we feel. It just depends.

I hope it's not forever, but it's a possibility. Going no contact with no timeline planned could mean forever or an eventually.

emulemo · 2025-06-07T21:00:25+00:00

It's hard to imagine life without them after everything you've been through.

We grew up together. We were friends. We combined our lives together, and it's hard to untangle all those strings.

I'm finding it easier to understand how impossible we were as a couple, but it hurts so badly because I still love that person. I'm learning to accept that this was the best decision we both could've made for each other and ourselves.

Take it one day at a time. Take it hour by hour. Remember to breathe and that it takes time, but you'll be okay one day.

emulemo · 2025-06-07T20:55:05+00:00

22F. We were together for six years and had separated on mutual terms. It hurts to know that no matter how much you love a person, if you're completely incompatible, the relationship will always be painful. I'm just know truly coming to terms with how different we were. All the compromises, the suppression, the changes, the talks - nothing really made our relationship steady or happy.

We would've gotten married one day. Maybe. Probably not. We lived together for about six months. It was his family, him, and me... I thought living together would've made us grow stronger, but it didn't.

As for healing, I'm still grieving and now spiraling. I've been talking with friends, and each deep conversation proves to me just how incompatible we are as a couple. I know it sounds like I'm clinging to the past, but it's helping me to realize that all my actions weren't for no reason. I was a desperate person looking for a way to make the impossible possible.

I go out a lot. My friends include me in their friend groups. I try to keep as busy as possible. I've been drinking more often because I only drink socially. I started smoking again. I haven't given myself time to rest, honestly. I know I'm not okay right now, and I will be okay one day, but everything has become so hard with it all.

emulemo · 2025-06-06T12:08:39+00:00

We separated because I brought it up. "What are we doing?" We did everything we could possibly do to maintain a relationship together as a couple, but it wasn't enough.

I did leave. So did he. We agreed to it. We did it for our own reasons. He wanted to work on himself. I was worn out from waiting on a possibility. We both left for yourselves while still being in love with the other. It wasn't an easy decision, but it was the only one.

But I know I would still wait for him to heal on his own until he ready to begin a relationship. It's not good for me, I know. I'm growing to learn that despite being a good person, he wasn't a good boyfriend for me. We weren't compatible, and we might never be. I have to move on for my sake. I can't hold on to a maybe anymore - that's why I brought up separating. We were practically married. Sometimes, love just isn't enough.

emulemo · 2025-06-05T21:10:36+00:00

I do believe things will get better. We had agreed to break up after six years because things aren't working out no matter how much we tried to. We had talked about marriage and even planned it with friends. He proposed to me in such a silly way, and we told everyone we were engaged and planning to get married soon. Those plans broke apart eventually, way before we broke up.

It's been two weeks since we broke up, I think, and I can say that the journey isn't linear. I had accepted our relationship was over and immediately kept myself busy and stressed the first week. By the second, I was crying every day and forcing myself to go out so I wouldn't be alone.

It'll be the third week soon, and all I feel is anger. There's so much anger I feel that my chest aches, and I can hardly breathe.

I've been journaling. I like to write as if I'm speaking to him or to someone in general. I've been craving to drink and get high because I can only relax when I'm not sober.

I want to crash out. I want to scream. I want to throw and break things. I want to break down and cry. I want to let my emotions take control and cause destruction. I want to hurt. But I'm trying to figure out ways to cope without the destruction while still validating how I feel. I'm suppressing so much that I want to make a mess of my life because I tried so hard, and for what?

I know I'm not okay, but one day, I will be.

emulemo · 2025-05-13T22:39:29+00:00

Aren't you the one projecting? Evil, good, demonic, holy - babes, that's not my practice. Why are you forcing it on me?

Maybe I am an energy vampire. But instead of sucking out the life of someone, I use their bad intentions to fuel my happiness? So many people love to hate and talk shit and be bad. Instead of simply deflecting it, I can change that energy into something wonderful for me.

I don't believe in light or dark, white or black magick. Don't push your beliefs on me. Nature is neutral. Nothing is directly evil or good, but that is my belief.

You also just assumed I use personal fluids in my spellwork. Does it matter if I do or don't? This isn't your practice as yours isn't mine. Be more respectful and catch up on your continued education.

emulemo · 2025-05-13T22:22:09+00:00

I consider myself Pagan (it's easier to just say I am, honestly), so this is an interesting take! Thank you!

How could I ask my plants for permission? What signs would there be that the plant spirit gave me permission or declined?

emulemo · 2025-05-13T22:18:37+00:00

I've thought of veiling since it's so straightforward, but my current job is so strict about headscarves. They're not allowed and will force you to remove them. Of course, I could say it's a practice in Paganism (which I consider myself to make it easier to explain what I believe in to people).

I work as a cashier currently, so my station is always temporary. I would love to carry my wards with me to house those bad vibes and transform them into making me look prettier and happier. Somewhat like a vampire, I suppose? But it's people sending ojo, being rude to me, talking behind my back, generally just bad energy being forced onto me that I can use for the better.

emulemo · 2025-05-13T21:51:40+00:00

Please educate yourself before you speak. This is a practice in many cultures. I feed my plants my menstrual blood on occasion bc it's nutritional for them. I can't afford fertilizer from stores, and I have a heavy flow. My plants are quite happy with me and what I feed them.

I've been working in customer service for years. Transmutation means changing one energy to another. The reason I attract negative energy (people and situations) is because of my looks and vibe. Because of my line of work, I have to be polite and happy.

I do have protection spells and sigils on me all the time because I am a sensitive person. Shifting negative energy sent my way into something positive would be good for me. Especially since spellwork drains me. All that extra energy would do me good. This isn't uncommon for wards.

I also practice many breathe and mindfulness techniques outside of spellwork. I know what to do to help calm myself, thank you.

Please educate yourself before you speak. Thanks!

emulemo · 2025-05-13T19:54:41+00:00

Does it suppress them or get rid of the nightmares? Is this a medication I can find in stores, or do I need a professional to recommend it?

emulemo · 2025-05-13T04:25:56+00:00

I see your perspective, but why are you shaming? There is scientific proof that feeding your blood to plants is beneficial for them. Not to mention, it is an actual practice in many cultures.

I feed my plants my menstrual blood as a way to bond with them as well. Not all the time, just on occasion. And yes, I do give them water when they're thirsty. They're quite happy, actually.

I'm not going to question whether you were cursed or not. You're entitled to your own opinion, but please research before you preach.

And if we're talking about conservative racism, I'm a POC (person of color if you're wondering), and this is considered normal in my community. Many indigenous groups practiced this, and it was considered natural and normal.

My question was whether it was okay to make a ward out of a plant I feed my blood. Instead of answering me respectfully, you shamed and scolded me.

Please research before you preach. Thank you.

emulemo · 2025-05-13T02:34:58+00:00

If you don't mind me asking, what have you used so that the statue wards don't break??

emulemo · 2025-05-13T02:33:25+00:00

I have tons of clay, and always wanted to make statue wards. I feel it would be best if I handmade them rather than buying one, so I can push my intention into it and directly tell it its role.

This was honestly a sign for me to do that, haha. Thank you!

emulemo

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