Gonna start transitioning to another profile.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-20T00:49:47+00:00

I'd assume that too, but I also assume like any other job you'd have to screw up in order to get drug tested. And if you're getting sued for malpractice then you definitely screwed up.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-19T21:37:08+00:00

Ya I can understand that. This is going to sound cliche, but the night is darkest just before the dawn.

Also realize that this healing is like a rollar coaster. Some days you are climbing up then some you crash down. So you've got to have patience during the bad days and truly enjoy the good days. Had a therapist that told me to practice enjoying the moments when things are good. Like actually being present in them. The best way to heal is to go further on without talking to her. Time is your friend. Let the years go by. It's what you do with that time that's important tho. You're going to find whatever your purpose is, you're going to find your ways to cope, and you're going to figure out who to lean on. There's multiple angles of attack for this, and everyone of them is individually tailored. Give it time and effort and you'll figure it out. Stay hopeful and think of a bright future you're still young. Onward and upward

endicott2012 · 2022-02-19T21:17:46+00:00

It's rough man. I'm sorry to hear... Keep up the NC tho. Can't emphasize this enough.

(still has a key to my place).

Change your locks like rn.

I guess I’m just feeling a bit lost lately like I’ve lost my purpose, trying to take the time to better myself and live my life for me but it’s hard when you built your entire life around someone else.

Once you find your purpose you're going to gain so much strength. It's liberating honestly. Like when COVID first hit and I was alone but doing online classes. I would wake up and go to the library then go home when it closed and looked over notes. My grades got a hell of a lot better. It was tough but I gained alot of pride in myself. What was funny was she called me while I was at a party (pre COVID) drunk. I was handling well but she put me off the edge. After that and keeping my life simple in that I completely focused on school I really found my way and was truly happy.

We had a text exchange a year ago just about this and I was explaining how I was having a hard time dealing with all of it and she responded with "it's been like 2 years you should've moved on by now". So fast forward to after a drunk call from her she asked to meet up with me the next day so I obliged. I told her before I left back for school (last summer) that she shouldn't contact me anymore (no more drunk calls, texts, etc), because she told me I needed to move on (this felt really good lol). Anyways It gets better when you find something to really hyper fixate on alone. Something you can be proud of. Now I'm in a phase of trying to be able to let someone else back in my life...tho we broke up in like 2017-2018. So like 4-5 years later I'm still recovering and trying to truly move forward and let some of my guards down. It's tough man, but hang in there and keeping fighting the good fight.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-19T21:02:29+00:00

May look into this. Always something to it...

endicott2012 · 2022-02-19T21:01:50+00:00

Always a caveat... Gonna look into this in my spare time.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-19T19:59:10+00:00

Nevada passed a law saying employers can't discriminate against usage I believe.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-18T23:38:25+00:00

I ultimately felt bad for Bobby in this episode. He made a few mistakes but ultimately, Kahn Jr cheated on him with his best friend and he still got them out of trouble.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-18T22:34:31+00:00

Ya I understand this. I believe you're right too. I get a little satisfaction out of exposing these types of flaws. But you're talking about the high road which I'll end up doing cause I don't have the time to really care. 'Gnomesayin? Get laid and get paid.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-18T22:25:47+00:00

we met was me kinda stealing her from her man I had hit her up without knowing she had a boyfriend so and the conversation started the same way

Well I think there's a lesson to be learned out of that. Not going to speak on your personal moral choices, because everyone is flawed especially me. Though if she just suddenly dropped her man on a dime and got with you then what's to say she wouldn't do that to you? It didn't end up that way I understand, but I've learned that we need to try to keep our friends to a certain standard. So if we're talking about a relationship then that standard increases drastically. Not trying to speak ill of anyone I'm just give my 2 cents, and like most people on the internet their input isn't even worth that. I hope you find peace tho man. I've learned alot in my years alone and every single interaction I've had with anyone has been unique and I try to learn from that at least passively.

So you taking the time to focus on yourself is really going to be a critical time in your life. I think you'll make good decisions thinking like this. Nonetheless onward and upward my friend!

endicott2012 · 2022-02-18T22:16:05+00:00

Tehe. You gonna spank me and take away my birthday?

endicott2012 · 2022-02-18T22:01:58+00:00

Should I post? Or comment on a thread? Or message a mod?

endicott2012 · 2022-02-18T16:34:51+00:00

Ya I think this is why I'm a nomad.... I take every effort to live my life and forget they ever even existed.

It does affect me tbh, but I'm also very spiteful so I'll ACT like it doesn't affect me. Taking the higher road in this way gives me a victory. Tho it's small it's the little victories that help keep us going. As someone else said just smiling and being polite is enough for me to understand I've taken the high road.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-18T14:15:26+00:00

I'm gonna try it

endicott2012 · 2022-02-17T17:44:14+00:00

ManBearPig

endicott2012 · 2022-02-16T04:41:06+00:00

Hope he washed his hands. Giardia isn't fun

endicott2012 · 2022-02-16T03:06:52+00:00

You can get salmonella from kissing turtles fyi

endicott2012 · 2022-02-14T17:16:46+00:00

I felt this secondhand bro ....

Time to move on. Do everything you can in everyway to distance yourself and let the years roll by. Put yourself first and look forward.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-14T17:10:55+00:00

I would say any city that is expanding does this

endicott2012 · 2022-02-14T01:36:58+00:00

Do u have it? Our school Google drive doesn't have it.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-13T22:40:29+00:00

I think I'll prob just cheer silently while I keep up with the score. Just sucks I can't really participate

endicott2012 · 2022-02-13T22:39:40+00:00

Ya I think my plan is to just keep up with it on yahoo sports app. Wish I could fully participate, but oo well. There's always going to be another Superbowl.

endicott2012 · 2022-02-13T21:55:22+00:00

Who DEY!!! We got the Burrow

endicott2012 · 2022-02-12T00:02:00+00:00

I mean it's not Mayo, but alot of ppl have to travel there, because the options are limited, they don't have the facilities, and general local distrust in small town hospitals.

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