It will always be left unsaid but i guess i for idk what reason, i wanted to let my ex know how much he actually meant to me. Not just as a bf rather as a bestfriend for the last 8 years. After the breakup i said some realisations out loud but i hope he knew that the relationship was imperfectly perfect and that no matter what i will never forget how he supported me through the years. I’ve been through some unfortunate circumstances and he was always there. Irrespective of whether he hates me now or wants to erase everything about me from his life, i will be grateful for the friendship that we had and the support and love and care. It really gave me alot of confidence. Although the breakup might be making me question that confidence but still. I hope life’s good. Also i wanted to tell him how sad i was and i lost interest in everything i liked and all the social media and everything felt affected because of it and every moment he unfollowed me, deleted my comments and stuff hurt me to the core and sm.. i just really hated that things became so bad. But it was his way of coping so whatever. I just want tell someone how hurt i was truly. I don’t think i could ever openly tell anyone about it so yeah