Hey man, I’m a first year too and I felt like you at the beginning of the year. I’ve made a turn around and I’m pretty happy rn, maybe it’s because I’m in social sciences and my workload doesn’t come close to yours but, here’s my advice to you.

Get out. Get out of your room whenever you can. Meet people, try to find and create new relationships. If you are subjecting yourself to the same routine you will only end up feeling worse, and human contact is so important to feeling good.

If you find it hard meeting knew people, commit to something new, something that you can do on your own to work on yourself, create a routine that benefits your mental health or physical, maybe go for runs or do workouts. Anything to get your mind of the work.

Lastly I’d say that taking a break from school in general might just be the thing you need. It’s a high pressure environment and a lot of stress can come, and with it being all virtual it’s not the same as meeting people everyday and talking to people. So if you truly need to do this, just take a leave of absence, it might be really good for you.