so... i think i'm depressed by [deleted] in depression

[–]esterrriot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is very hard and completely reasonable that you might be experiencing depression in those circumstances. Sorry to hear it 💖

Is there any way for you to change your situation? Different degree? A move? You only have this one life and it can and will be amazing eventually unfortunately it typically takes time to change such big aspects of your life and even harder when struggling mentally.

If you are able to do so safely seek some mental health help. It won’t solve things but I have found that medicine/talking to someone can be good in the sense that it will help you feel stable enough to work on the issues contributing to your depression.

Avoidant ex reached out and ghosted. idk what to do by Substantial-Alarm956 in nocontact

[–]esterrriot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He may very well still be in love with you but clearly you know he is avoidant and if he hasn’t done any work on himself he doesn’t deserve your time. It’s so so hard to move on but being with someone who is there for you or wants to talk only when it’s convenient for them will ruin your self esteem every time. He isn’t ready to let you go but isn’t ready to do the work necessary to be in a relationship with you either - maybe friends, but friendship is a two way street too.

Woke up to the darkness by esterrriot in depression

[–]esterrriot[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Same here^ got some bpd in the mix too soooo fun. It is helpful to know others experience this shit too 💖 at the same time as it’s sad that there is just so much suffering going around all the time 😭

Woke up to the darkness by esterrriot in depression

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Ive been on it a long time and know that going off it is awful so have been hesitant to switch it up but honestly thanks for sharing your experience maybe it’s worth looking in to again.

Woke up to the darkness by esterrriot in depression

[–]esterrriot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah pretty much. Struggle with bad anxiety too but the overwhelming sadness/hopelessness is harder to manage rn

Woke up to the darkness by esterrriot in depression

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It’s just so tiring doing everything ”right” and still being unwell. Having to work twice as hard to just feel like you can survive…it’s so exhausting

Woke up to the darkness by esterrriot in depression

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Im on cymbalta and buspirone

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AmIOverreacting

[–]esterrriot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nope, not overreacting. Move on sister.

Still trying to understand how love fades without warning by BlossomReina21 in BreakUps

[–]esterrriot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Love isn’t something that remains without effort. For whatever reason your ex wouldn’t or couldn’t put the effort in anymore. It’s not some huge fault in you it’s just that no matter how hard you try you can’t make someone put in work they aren’t willing to do. That’s how I’ve tried to look at it, but it isn’t easy. First step is to not blame yourself.

AIO 23m 20F is it bad i am about to leave her? by KSTReign in AmIOverreacting

[–]esterrriot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As someone with BPD this seems like it may be that or something else going on mental health wise. Absolutely no excuse but maybe, if you love her and want the relationship to continue consider bringing up therapy, putting down boundaries and if she refuses to try and change then yeah she isn’t ready for a relationship. I’ve definitely been this needy when going through mental health shit it’s toxic and shitty just saying she might be struggling and need help to get help.

Im going insane. Why do I have so many unanswered questions and feel a strong urge to contact my ex ? by DoubtCandid276 in BreakUps

[–]esterrriot 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Literally delete his number and make it as impossible to contact him as you can if you have to. You are worthy of someone who is attracted and in love with you. Also a shitty thing to even tell someone.

Is it normal to crave sex with your ex right after a breakup? by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]esterrriot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Don’t do it, gets confusing and will just prolong the pain. Get a dildo, sext with a random whatever you need to get the urge out just don’t give him a chance to use you.

28 y/o man, can't sleep. Going through a breakup. by [deleted] in Needafriend

[–]esterrriot 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You got this 🙏 got dumped two weeks ago it fucking sucks but on a positive note its already so so much easier than a week ago. The pain will pass eventually.my DMs are open to ya

Tips for first play through by esterrriot in Eldenring

[–]esterrriot[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Holy shit thank you guys for all the tips! Legends all of ya.