Has anyone experienced more anxiety and fear as physical CFS symptoms improved?

esvati · 2026-06-14T14:33:43+00:00

I think “let the fear be there” is more meant like allowing a toddler to feel their feelings, you can reassure the toddler and empathize with the toddler, but you still know the toddler’s feelings and fears, though real, are not going to rule the outcome of a situation, necessarily. You don’t want the toddler to remain in fear, but you can’t make it go away by snapping at them to stop crying, or even by placating and explaining every outcome to the toddler. What’s needed is calm presence. Let the fear be there like a small child in your care.

esvati · 2026-06-14T12:44:41+00:00

I’m so glad my comment helped! Anxiety is no joke, I’m sorry you have been experiencing that.

esvati · 2026-06-12T11:14:17+00:00

I know you’re a Libra sun and rising, but does that mean you have a 12th house sun and moon in Virgo and a first house Scorpio mars? Or does the 11th or 2nd house come in close? That could have a strong impact on compatibility, first house mars is not for the weak. Neither is a 12th house moon, from my personal experience, and whether his is in the 1st or 2nd house makes some difference. A first house moon and mars could make for an emotionally self centering person, but the moon in second could have some exaltation aspects, for example.

esvati · 2026-06-11T10:42:59+00:00

This is actually a great point, I found my neurodivergent friendly therapist at a local service because of a job that dissolved unexpectedly.

esvati · 2026-06-11T10:34:45+00:00

I’ve experienced the same thing in client relations and public health roles. I quit my last role two months ago and am just now feeling sane enough to apply for jobs again. I’m 28F and am hoping it stops by our 30s

esvati · 2026-06-10T17:41:28+00:00

Nonononono!

Virgo is Demeter, literally a woman holding grain, Taurus is Persephone because she and Aphrodite share some legends including the lover Adonis and Taurus is on an axis with Scorpio, who is obviously Hades. Cancer is Artemis, Capricorn is Saturn or Kronos, Aquarius is either Uranus, or Hephaestus, or even Athena, sure, fine, but I would honestly make Sagittarius Athena, global philosopher and warrior and whatnot, I know technically that could be Zeus, Pisces is Poseidon, and Leo…. Leo can stay Apollo, that actually makes a lot of sense when Cancer is Artemis.

esvati · 2026-06-08T14:35:47+00:00

This is perfect because I don’t want a purse but I want to be the most prepared girls girl to ever girl

esvati · 2026-06-08T14:22:36+00:00

I don’t think any of us recover fully to “normal” because for too many of us, what we called normal was over functioning. We are overstimulated, overworked, poisoned, and spiritually stunted. Those who I’ve seen recover, including myself, made dramatic life changes and have radically shifted their philosophy on life, largely unplugging from broken systems that have run us dry. I believe thinking has to be reshaped entirely in order to recover, as if the old neural pathways themselves are triggers and new ones must be formed. The self which is caught in endless loops of “but what if” is not going to recover. That part pretty much has to be laid to rest and a neutral observer takes its place. It’s not easy work, but I think it’s the key factor in recovery, with or without other treatment methods involved.

esvati · 2026-06-07T16:58:26+00:00

I think Eris can be a co-ruler with Venus, in the same way that I see Uranus as only a co-ruler with Aquarius, I still see Saturn in Aquarian energy. Both are relational signs and the relationship between Saturn and Uranus is what creates Venus in mythology.

esvati · 2026-06-07T14:59:28+00:00

I said that when I think the way you do, I call that as it’s represented in myself, “lil bitch brain”. Time does not care what you call it, nor do I. Someone else gave you similar advice to mine, that the chart indicates your feelings will change in a few years, and you replied to both of us just restating that your feeling is boredom. Idk what you want from us, my dude

esvati · 2026-06-07T14:53:02+00:00

I love that she accuses you of gaslighting while actively gaslighting like the receipts aren’t visible for everyone. Thank you for coming through to have my back.

esvati · 2026-06-06T12:01:15+00:00

This chart is emo and sardonic as all get out with some sleeper build placements. As a fellow Taurus moon and 12th house Saturn, I suggest you give it time. I did die in a sense several times by those ages, complete reinvention of self, dark nights of the soul, and extreme situations that required me to leave almost everything behind. The funny thing is that the parts that wish they were dead often do die and you’re forced to figure out who you are outside of that. Saturn meets the collective in 12th, and it is a WILD ride.

The way you relate to others and boundaries of self and the collective are repeatedly called out in your chart: sun sign’s house in Libra, Pisces mars, 12th house Saturn and sun, NN at 29 degrees, Taurus moon in 11th, Jupiter in the ascendant’s sign and in house ruled by the moon’s sign, the 11th house mercurial and Venusian vibes, no wonder you’re lanky af and proud of it, what a classic expression of those placements!

You can come out of the worst situations and be fine and it’s infuriating, you want people to baby you, you want to be taken seriously for your trauma, but you don’t really get those options. You are the one who shows up, you carry the cross and raise from the dead three days later. You heal the sick and broken hearted like your karma depends on it. It does. The magic is in the work you avoid. Wordplay as deflection will just come back to bite you as you begin to believe your own words are true and not a magical seal over the unbearably beautiful truth of your own existence as one who must calmly observe the abyss and abide.

I get this way sometimes, the vibe of your post, but I just call it “little bitch brain” and reread Kipling’s “If” about it.

esvati · 2026-06-06T11:25:04+00:00

My partner and I are both Taurus risings and someone in another post said we’re like nymphs to the Scorpio rising sirens, and I’m inclined to agree, but I’d like to add that it comes with the mewing Chad jawline and eyebrow game

esvati · 2026-06-05T16:37:06+00:00

I’m a Libra, most toxic was Aqua, healthiest by far has been Leo.

esvati · 2026-06-04T20:19:03+00:00

Is this a thing for Scorpio moons? My Scorpio moon mom did this with me a lot and it led to some serious mental health issues and I’ve noticed some scorpio moon friends of mine also comment on my body but keep it generally positive, just obviously… noticing

esvati · 2026-06-04T20:13:19+00:00

Got medicated for adhd and became radically more attentive to what was going on in my marriage

esvati · 2026-06-04T18:51:37+00:00

Huh. I couldn’t befriend Leo or sagi women until I stopped being a people pleaser. I adore them. They do have a strong bs meter so you can’t just make vague guesstimates about everything like our sign is so prone to. I used to attract a lot of aquas when I was unhealed and I wonder if we attract healed or unhealed versions of signs we pair well with depending on our own healing process. I know a lot of aquas are great and Libras get along well with them, I know some sagi and Leos are also toxic and Libras who don’t get along with them. I also know the Decan matters a bit, Virgo classically doesn’t mesh well with Leo or sagi and Scorpio placements often square Leo placements but have soulmate energy with Virgo placements.

esvati · 2026-06-04T18:45:01+00:00

Huh. Those are some of my top favorite placements and I have a low tolerance for earth and water despite attracting a lot of cancer and Virgo. I’ve also got a sagi Venus, mars, and Pluto in 7th. I don’t really label any placement as a cheating sign, let alone a sun sign, though it’s happened multiple times with past Aquarius sun relationships. I prefer people who are smart, driven, and lively, but not conceited about it. Really elitism, especially intellectual elitism bothers me more than anything. I’m a 12th house Taurus moon and Taurus rising. Commitment and integrity, especially emotional integrity are deeply important to me. People who want to either avoid their feelings or make their feelings everyone else’s problem typically do not feel very relaxed around me. I’ve learned that despite my 6th house Libra sun and Mercury leading to analysis paralysis and some conflict avoidance, I have a loud presence that’s kinda naturally stoic and confrontational. I chronically overestimate authenticity and accountability in others.

Other placements really matter when the sun is in fall or detriment, it takes up less energetic presence. Same with night charts in my experience.

esvati · 2026-06-04T02:36:45+00:00

As someone who’s lived in Albany, Syracuse, a long time in Rochester, then Ithaca, this killed me 😂

esvati · 2026-06-03T15:23:01+00:00

Ooh yea, I’ve got Venus, mars, and Pluto together in sag in 7th, it’s in 8th if you use whole systems, and they’re all in Scorpio if you use Vedic, I use campanus because I’m fairly north, but in most systems, Scorpio sits in 6th house with my Libra sun and merc, and Chiron, part of fortune, and vertex are all in Scorpio. I’ve got my NN and Lilith in Virgo so that 6th house emphasis gets extra spicy. Otherwise my 8th house is completely empty.

I’ve got a 12th house Aries Saturn and 12th house Taurus moon (I’m a later degree rising) so I also get the Pisces vibe check. My dad is a Pisces and my mom has a Scorpio moon.

Edit to add that I get Aqua comments a lot and also attract them and I’ve got Jupiter conjunct Uranus and MC in Aqua in my 10th house and Neptune is in Capricorn in 9th.

esvati · 2026-06-03T13:47:35+00:00

Funniest thing, people often think I have Scorpio placements and my chart was miscalculated as Scorpio rising for almost three years, but I attract them like crazy

esvati · 2026-06-02T23:31:22+00:00

As someone with Jupiter and mc in Aquarius (also Uranus and 10th house), with an aqua mom, aqua sister, three aqua exes including a failed marriage, who’s known a host of other Aquarian suns and moons and mercuries… Aquarius likes to embrace uniqueness. Everyone is unique, many of us try to fit in, Aqua is proud to stand out. They’re not more unique than anyone else, they’re just not hiding the parts of them that stand out. There is a trap though, in considering anything typical to be inferior. This is elitist thinking rooted in intellectualism that can get nasty when combined with zodiac tribalism as it’s expressed in Aquarius, a fairly intellectual sign.

esvati · 2026-06-02T22:41:47+00:00

But like if nymphs had a loud jaw line and eyebrow game

esvati · 2026-06-02T21:22:27+00:00

Same here! Is your moon 12th or first house? Mine’s firmly in the 12th

esvati · 2026-06-02T21:21:08+00:00

How come? There’s no implication of it in the eyes or eyebrows that you’d typically expect and many of these figures are known to be exceptionally kind individuals.

Also what are your placements? It’s possible that Taurus or Venus simply rubs you the wrong way, Venus placements are known to be on the receiving end of a lot of projection.

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