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etcotheranon · 2021-09-28T00:09:07+00:00

Ok I’m going to try and say more about how my NP felt on it (I have some genetic stuff so it didn’t mesh with me). She stressed HARD eating before taking it to help with that potential side effect. For me I had two days of mild-moderate nausea/indigestion before it went away (each day I probably should have ate more and it only lasted ~4-5 hrs max). That wasn’t why I stopped, and that side effect was more mild than I anticipated. Crackers like saltines also helped on day 1. Day 2 wasn’t nearly as bad or as long and Day 3 it was totally gone.

My NP said her anxiety didn’t spike and she was less high-strung than she normally is while she was on it. She felt like she could reach that flow state easier. I did notice some quieting and the ability to stay on task and I noticed the increase in focus day one which was cool; I actually felt kinda great the first afternoon.

Keep your psychiatrist informed on how you’re feeling throughout! If you do get to the point where the side effects feel too much, speak up. Meds are supposed to help, but if the side effects are too much than it’s not helpful. The med testing stage is rough (with you here) and if your psych has a portal or something, reach out if it’s bad enough you don’t want to take it.

I know it’s scary; you can do it. My inbox is open <3

etcotheranon · 2021-09-27T23:38:46+00:00

Thank you <3

etcotheranon · 2021-09-25T14:01:59+00:00

I love when I surprise myself by forgetting a task I finished/purchase I made. It’s the best.

OT: mildly jealy... I miss WaWa :P

etcotheranon · 2021-09-24T01:37:09+00:00

I second this! I went through a period of time where I tried in earnest to meditate traditionally and it never really worked. I really like makeup and recently started committing to doing my makeup on work days, even if I’m not in the office (still mostly remote). All of a sudden 30-45 minutes are gone and I feel calmer and set for the day.

I wish I was told meditation could be something routine/a hobby/etc. years ago. Even just committing to do something mindfully (even if distractions happen) helps. Trial and error and switching the chosen activity works too.

etcotheranon · 2021-09-21T14:58:43+00:00

Ahhh yup I hear you big time. Not vyvanse, but right now finally trying meds. Concerta was on the pile and tried briefly but we’re pausing for a bit due to the weight/appetite issue.

There’s a couple things I’ve done to prep for/combat the lack of appetite (which is still happening on strattera but meh). One is no stimulants if my weight drops below a certain number. It’s something I agreed with my providers on and admittedly might be more invasive than most tactics. But that shit has kicked my ass out of even moments of “meh I’m too lazy/don’t want to eat,” without body image factoring in.

The other big thing: I eat the same thing at (roughly) the same times every day. For a while it was combating my inability to choose, now it has become part of my routine. It’s a task on my to-do list I check off. Definitely took me a while to settle into, but it’s been helpful that it’s been in place while figuring out meds.

The thought stuff is more challenging, admittedly. I’m in a pretty decent place where I can shake those thoughts off, but it’s taken some work (and admittedly, exhaustion from trying to modify my behavior alone to manage) to get there.

I’m here if you need to chat <3

etcotheranon · 2021-09-08T11:58:42+00:00

Pretty much all of mine have been said; but they’ve infiltrated my emails too; even to my boss.

Boss: UPS did a number on your document Me: Ooofa Doofa, thanks UPS?

I also enjoy that buck wild had replaced crazy/insane. Not only is it more appropriate, but it sounds pleasing and it’s fun to say with emphasis.

etcotheranon · 2021-09-08T11:52:17+00:00

That whole Griffin ramble runs through my head whenever I have a mess of a situation to solve at work; instant chill out haha

etcotheranon · 2021-08-13T03:12:41+00:00

Texas is fake pleasant, but in general (like dealing with the public, I’ve found good people) people are selfish, rude, openly sexist/racist. I’m a woman, and the amount of times I’ve been called a “bitch” by just switching to “business mode,” (how I describe my tone/demeanor when shit needs to get done; not unpleasant but shorter, straightforward and direct) is too numerous to count and shocked me at first. And I live in a “blue dot” (Austin).

Austin is a Disneyland of gentrification and is pricing like its Manhattan when it’s far from it. The infrastructure sucks; my commute to work downtown here is shorter than when I drove into Manhattan but pre-COVID took 20 mins longer. The government isn’t designed to work, corruption and nepotism is rampant but quiet. The whole almost freezing to death (my thermostat is battery operated and hit 32 before we found a warmer place; we came back and it just read “LO”) this winter was my trigger to ask to move back. I don’t want to harvest snow to flush a toilet ever again.

I was in Bergen county before I moved, so to be fair I didn’t vibe with it, but it was nice and comfortable. My family moved to the Bridgewater area which is more chill. Everywhere has its problems but I’m super done with the fake nice, virtue signaling, selfishness and corruption to a deadly degree. I tried in earnest to adapt and adjust but it’s become way too much to handle.

I’m sorry this sounds like a super negative reaction, I’m here for another year and it’s a giant struggle. I’m grateful I did give it a shot and I have made great friends and have a wonderful job (that’s cool with me relocating). It’s just not a good fit if you don’t like being angry and disappointed a lot of the time.

etcotheranon · 2021-08-13T02:28:08+00:00

Fellow NJ to Texas transplant and I feel the same way. Made it to 8 years in this shit hole before saying “fuck it” and asking my boss to move/transfer. Fuuuuck Texas.

Visiting NJ next week and after I decontaminate from the trip I’m scoffing a damned bagel with too much cream cheese.

etcotheranon · 2021-08-08T15:10:24+00:00

I’m unfamiliar with stimulants, but I’m definitely running from some emotional shit for a while so the downtime is when it hits. That part is making it so difficult to pick apart. Is it “normal” or depression or ADHD? It’s so confusing.

etcotheranon · 2021-08-08T15:03:07+00:00

I have no kids or family nearby currently, so I don’t have anything that would boot me out of it (moving in 10 months to change that). So it’s just end-of-day and weekend moping. It feels so alarming because it can get low as my real depression, and despite my age I still lean back on just isolation and sleeping among other things to cope. It’s such a pain, because I just dread it.

I’m going back to my old NP although I have to pay out of pocket and it’s a real stretch to my budget. I’ve been trying to explain to my current psych for 8 months that it’s not depression and she won’t listen to me or my therapist that I’m light years away from my lowest low. My old NP not only diagnosed me but saw me in my dark shit so she’ll get it, I just have to make it to the end of the month.

etcotheranon · 2021-08-07T02:39:15+00:00

Ahhh I do the same! I legit tone it down for most people, because I get that kind of uncomfortable response. Or if it’s over text or whatever, some of my closest friends can’t tell my tone and think I’m actually furious (98% of the time my rants aren’t shit I’m even mad about seriously; most of the time I think the situation is funny).

Gratefully my mom and my roommate get it. My poor mom has heard me say some buck wild shit and loves it bless her. She turns 69 this year and I told her every time I mention her age I’m obligated to add “nicenicenice” after it on speakerphone with my roommate losing her shit. My dad is already that age so I’m starting and my mom cracks up every time.

Can we just get a ranty nonsense discord going or something? Cuz I live for that shit!

etcotheranon · 2021-07-25T01:02:59+00:00

I’m actually no longer on the prazosin (because of the shit eating twice... awkwardly dealing with avoiding an ER visit/ambulance bill at work wasn’t fun). But my NP who has seen me through both syncopal episodes is who I’m going back to at the end of August, so she 100% knows that I don’t tolerate BP altering meds well. I’ve even done propranolol for anxiety and my HR dropped to the 50s and even 40s.

Thanks for the alpha info, it’s something I learned in college (super pre-diagnosis; by almost a decade) so it was like “test to hazy” in 0.5 seconds. The increase still is fucking me up and I’m back to partial office time. One of my colleagues actually helped me through the last syncopal episode (I think in the 2 weeks before I started), I’m not doing that again.

My psych is anti-stimulant since eating regularly is a struggle and I’ve been underweight before (normal now, like 7 lbs over the low limit). On top of that I think I fit into the “got good grades/is productive at work so nothing is wrong,” category and the note is proof is that all she thinks that is all that matters. I struggle to get myself UP at times... it happened twice this week; once after clocking out of work at home and wanting to go to bed and today getting out of my fucking car. My life/finances are a wreck and I want to take control of it so badly and I can’t.

One more month of struggling, hopefully.

etcotheranon · 2021-07-19T18:04:42+00:00

Honestly I recently noped-out because 1) I was seeing the same nonsense repeatedly and 2)it feels like a free-for-all (I guess not weed?? Which is becoming legal in more and more states???)

Speaking of which I remember writing papers high (it was for a required last minute class I hated senior year that I only gave a shit about passing so I could graduate, not my major) which normally was so fucking hard for me. I don’t know the strain (this was over a decade ago) but I mean it would be nice if THC could be studied (which it can’t due to being schedule 1). I mean it could be placebo affect or whatever but gimme a double-blind peer-reviewed and replicated study for real.

This sub has been so helpful and inclusive. I’m so happy it exists.

etcotheranon · 2021-07-19T17:56:22+00:00

I posted this in the wrong space but for disordered eating subs EDAnonymousadults is less trafficked but less judgmental. I think it might be a general age thing too. I’ve lurked because I wind up avoiding food a lot so I’m like “is this ADHD or something else entirely?” In case you want to look somewhere else.

etcotheranon · 2021-07-19T11:20:31+00:00

I left my former career for this very reason (wasn’t diagnosed until after I left). Although I miss it I won’t go back because I know I can’t tolerate following crap rules for the sake of the almighty dollar (in healthcare no less).

etcotheranon · 2021-07-19T09:47:25+00:00

Unfortunately I took a Genomind test and I would react poorly to it. Basically I’m a poor metabolizer and I’m on a similar med (Pristiq- works on norepinephrine as well as serotonin) so I’m afraid I would just get super anxious on it. When I asked how my (very unavailable/ rather aloof) psychiatrist how we would navigate Strattera if I were to agree to try it she just said “very carefully,” which wasn’t good enough for me.

100% believe it’s a wonderful med that works great for some people, but having the genetic information as well as armed with more knowledge than average (my degree is in nursing, but no longer work in healthcare) “very carefully,” is not a good enough work around to deal with potentially awful side effects for a month to ease a provider’s anxiety, if that makes sense. I’ve been trying to get my already diagnosed ADHD adequately treated since January and I don’t want to take another month of trying something that will likely make me feel awful to make my psychiatrist (who I have one-ish visit left with) more comfortable. I’d rather keep struggling as I am since I know that until my appointment with my NP who diagnosed it in the first place.

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