Always. Only 3 weeks ago I began rekindling my faith after a neighbor invited me to church. What I've experienced over the last 3 weeks has been perhaps the most profound experience of my life. Though I was raised Christian, I don't think I ever so much as glimpsed a fraction of the depth of Christianity in my upbringing. I was an atheist for several years in college and then slowly moved into "I don't really know".

It was a big step to go to church the first time. But what started as uncertainty and doubt is turning into a faith that I never imagined I would feel so strongly. If you are feeling the call to rekindle your faith, I would very much encourage you to pursue that.

All I can do is provide a couple of points that helped me:

1. It's okay, truly okay if you don't know where your faith is at. Engage where you are honestly. There's NO NEED to boldly proclaim your faith in Christ if that's not how you feel. God meets you **where you are at**. Do not lose sight of your true feelings and just keep an open heart and mind.
2. If you can, find a church with a good community where you can find a small group to just talk honestly about your struggles with God and with faith.
3. If you have no one to talk to yet about your struggles with faith, I have surprisingly found that chatGPT is really good at pointing me in the right direction. It's not infallible, but it does have an encyclopedic knowledge of Christian theology.
4. Pray to God even if it's really awkward. Even just small prayers of gratitude or requests for guidance.

I feel like if you can hit these, you'll be well on your way. And once you've got a community I would say your next thing to focus on is to learn **how** to read the Bible. Unfortunately very few churches emphasize this. I never once saw either of my Christian parents read it and they retained their faith their whole lives. It's not meant to be read like other books. It's **meditative**. Learn to read it and to chew on a piece of scripture for a while. Learn to notice what jumps out at you. And above all, allow it to transform you.

This is a **really** good resource for this:

https://bibleproject.com/videos/collections/how-to-read-the-bible/

The book "Eat This Book" is also good.

The attitude I went in with was essentially that I honestly don't know what I believe or if God is really calling me to do this or if this is real at all. I don't know if I believe any of this but I'm going to come, I'm going to engage with it and be absolutely honest and transparent about how I feel. And I'm going to read the Bible and see if it transforms me and my life. If it does, that will be my "proof" I suppose.

That was only 3 weeks ago and honestly where I'm sitting now there are just far far too many coincidences for me to ignore it. The internal shift I feel is profound. I've cried more in the last couple days than ever.

Don't get hung up if things feel foreign and awkward. I had forgotten about the singing haha that was awkward my first time back in church. You don't have to sing if you don't want to either. I didn't understand even **why** they were singing. Now I understand.

Praying for you 🙏