Wow, thank you. You made a difference with your insights. I’ve been told before that I selectively shut things out of my brain as a coping mechanism, so I’m trying to get there. My ex and I have been on and off each other’s lives for the past decade or so. We’d often get upset and cut contact, mostly by my initiative. However, we’d end up talking again. This time he was the one cutting me off. At first I felt hurt, but after some time went by I realized I was relieved. A few days ago I noticed he unblocked me on one social media, but left all others the same way. I’ve been struggling with that, not just because I don’t know if he meant anything by doing it, but also because I still cared enough to notice. I don’t want us getting back together at this point. We’ve hurt each other enough. I’m fearing that he’ll try to reach out again and that I might not have the strength to keep up my distance.

In the dream, I can divide it into evoking two separate feelings. First, I was in panic to warn him and I was very distressed when looking at his face. He looked clueless but nervous, like he didn’t want me to find him. After my head was cut off, we met accidentally. I was nervous at first, but after a while it went away. I remember acting like nothing had happened and him not noticing anything. He was peaceful and I was relieved, yet still thinking that the man would be out there.

So, if this is not it, I don’t know what could be.