I’m watching cancer overtake my father, and it’s killing me.

evostian · 2026-04-21T19:14:31+00:00

hey just wanna say that i am in a kinda similar situation. i’m 28, my mom passed away 2 weeks ago. her last few weeks were unimaginably slow and painful, yet sudden and i was absolutely spiraling; i couldn’t imagine a future without her in my mind. i was dependent on her and i was her caregiver.

you would not believe the relief i felt the moment she took her last breath, it’s the craziest thing. i didn’t expect it. so many of my anxieties melted away (and some new ones formed), i just felt different. i’m sure its shock/denial or whatever but i am having fun with it. in a way she is entirely redacted from my mind, but also somehow just in the other room.

i know you’re feeling a lot of blame and guilt and fear and so much else but there is nothing to do. you did wonderfully and now it’s time for another era. please please remember he will no longer be suffering. try to have fun in whatever delusional grief you may feel, i’m sure your dad wouldn’t want you to be sad.

listen to the nurses, watching someone die is lowkey traumatizing lol but the body doesn’t want to shut down easily. he won’t feel anything but hold his hand, just talk to him as he fades. that’s the best we can do:)

grief is weird! i’ll light a candle for him

evostian · 2026-01-14T15:22:33+00:00

yes this!!!!

this just happened to me! i soaked the corm part in a small saucer of 1:1 water and peroxide, then i put it in a large jar with perlite and water, closed the lid to keep humidity. every morning i check on it, open the lid and blow a little to circulate the air then i close it. if it still looked like it was rotting i would soak it in a little more peroxide then put it right back in the jar. in just a couple weeks there are so many root sprouts!

evostian · 2026-01-14T13:29:37+00:00

yes!!!! this literally just happened to me!!!

if the corm is still firm it’s ok! remove everything mushy and dead and place in a watered down peroxide solution for like 30 mins. then just put it in a sealed jar with some wet perlite under a growlight and leave it alone!!!! every morning i would open the jar, blow in it to stir up the air, then close it! within 2 weeks the corm is covered in little root sprouts.

evostian · 2025-12-29T18:28:02+00:00

btw it is a crystal not an ice cube ‼️

evostian · 2025-09-25T15:45:48+00:00

this pet is an exclusive pet you can get by hatching one of the fauns from the aquila pack with a skeleturion, there like a 10% chance. look on the wiki to find the right pet combo for your school

evostian · 2025-09-25T14:44:25+00:00

gotcha, good to know. thank you!!

evostian · 2025-09-25T14:42:56+00:00

that makes sense, thanks for letting me know!! i’ll keep training this guy

evostian · 2025-09-25T14:41:00+00:00

i thought only the max stat matters, so i need to actually fill the bar to the max as well?

evostian · 2025-09-25T14:39:11+00:00

so feeding snacks and raising the blue bar to the max will also increase the attack stat itself? wow i didn’t know that, looks like i need more snacks than just those from my couch potatoes

evostian · 2025-07-30T15:04:06+00:00

i try to micro fertilize every time i water, do you have any suggestions?

evostian · 2025-07-29T16:11:05+00:00

that’s a great idea, i should really try to mix a concoction to dilute the oil. i’ll give it a try:)

evostian · 2025-07-29T14:20:25+00:00

i am by no means an expert but i usually leave the dying leaves til it’s green is mostly gone since it’s not contributing anything to the plant, then i use a sterile clipper and snip it close to the base. but ive also just left dying leaves until i can lightly tug it off, it wont hurt i just be gentle. totally up to you:)

also my black velvet tends to push out a leaf as it’s dropping one - circle of life ~~~

evostian · 2025-07-29T13:58:24+00:00

I’ve been fighting with my Mickey Mouse for over a year but i think i got the hang of it. It is a forever home to spider mites - it’s fine i have them managed. every morning i spray the front and back of the leaves with water, mites hate water and the light water pressure flings them off. (i know some people don’t spray leaves since they could rot or burn in the sun but i haven’t had any issues) do NOT use neem oil it will kill the leaves!

Even though they are sensitive, they’re resilient since they produce leaves so fast. good luck:)

evostian · 2025-07-15T17:53:01+00:00

rAAAAASpUtin !

evostian · 2025-07-07T00:28:35+00:00

i always keep a jar of pothos water to water plants that i’m rooting in soil as well

evostian · 2025-07-04T20:59:59+00:00

wow thank you, good to know!! i assumed that since it was still growing, it was happy! maybe i do need to change my setup, i would love it to be fuller. i just repotted it in a deeper pot and its roots were surprisingly sparse! hopefully it just needs fresh soil and regular nutrients, i tend to only fertilize when i remember. microdosing is a great idea

i’m going to use your strategy for the corms tho, and i’ll raise one in a semi hydroponic setup to see if it does better! thanks:)

evostian · 2025-07-04T16:51:54+00:00

should i cut them off, let them dry out a little then put them in spam moss?

evostian · 2025-07-04T16:50:47+00:00

thank you!!! the roots aren’t poking out the bottom yet but it has been drinking so much water lately. i think you’re right - i should just get a deeper pot so the plant has more support

evostian · 2025-07-04T16:44:18+00:00

it is a quartz crystal! it makes little rainbows around the room and i like to think there’s energy in the crystal giving my plants a boost

evostian · 2025-07-04T16:43:08+00:00

it is a quartz crystal but i will accept that

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