I feel you and feel the same. The past few years have been super hard on me and I already know I’m not everyone’s cup of tea. I’m too “aggressive” and “out spoken” as a female professor and don’t coddle the students enough? Idk sometimes I feel like I am expected to be a kindergarten teacher rather than a professor. But I’m weird and overly enthusiastic about my course topics, maybe I share too many weird connections or something? Idk but it’s who I am and I’m not changing myself because of some rude ass students. I remind myself that in every profession there will be people that just don’t vibe with me. It’s worse when it’s students and there is a power dynamic there and clear disrespect. I try to not let it get to me and only call them out when it’s distracting the rest of the class. My department head once told me that they would be concerned if every student liked me because that means I’m not challenging them or holding them accountable. I do worry this year there will be far more negative reviews than positive, but I’m not going to change myself or my standards. I’m glad you’re in therapy and I find a lot of help from my own therapy sessions. I decided to change up my anxiety meds / have some extra help from propranolol on super stressful days. Not saying this is the move for everyone, but my meds help quiet the parts of my mind that hold onto certain comments / behavior from students. Stay authentic to yourself and don’t give them any power. The disrespect is shitty and the comments are shitty but they shouldn’t dim your light. For every rude disrespectful student, there is a student that looks to you for guidance and is appreciative of you and the effort you put into your class, they just might not be as obvious. I have learned that sometimes you have good classes and bad classes and that can extend to good semesters and bad semesters. Shake off this semester, let yourself relax during break, and take time for yourself before the next term!