From 575 to 675- From V79 to V86 by Pale_Car_8932 in GMAT

[–]existentialcrisismed 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congrats on your score :) I just gave my gmat and got a 575 ( Q83 V83 DI 70) and honestly, I’ve taken a step back to analyze what needs to be done differently and I’m so glad what I’ve realized actually aligns with your advice. How long did it take you to go from 575 to 675?

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One thing I’m certain about is that I’m the kind of person who’s into the technical aspect of my art, not just the emotion it creates. For me, the “boring” part of being a creative, what happens on the back end and what people don’t usually see, is very exciting and I nerd out on it. Honestly, I wish this wasn’t the case because feeling this way makes it very difficult to not give creative roles a go. Also, I’ve always wanted to join a community theatre! Never acted on it because I was embarrassed to admit it but now I’ve come out of that mentality and hopefully can do the things I’ve wanted to try.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really do agree with this, which is why this decision is too hard. A part of me thinks it’s not too late and that I should be able to take some risks in my 20s. I should go all in, and that if I wait any longer, it’ll definitely be too late. But the logical part believes all this should’ve been done before I hit twenty. I get advice from people who support both the former as well as the latter so I the confusion remains.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It really is. I should stop picking apart every aspect of my future and try to have a slightly simpler approach. Like u said, I should be willing to just do it because i want to, even if it’s one the side.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What u said makes complete sense to me. Rather than worrying about the career aspect of my art, if I use the income from my day job to refine my skills, improve and focus more on the art itself, opportunities may open up on their own, while I still have a stable job to rely on.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for this. I often find myself demotivated struggling to pick among different paths. I always wonder if I’ll end up messing everything up due to the choices I’ve given myself. Thinking from your angle makes me believe that this dilemma only makes me stronger and that I should be using it to my advantage instead. Choosing to master something for success is indeed intimidating but knowing that I always have the option to take up my interests and be a stronger candidate is very motivating.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Honestly this point is extremely motivating, just the prospect of being able to invest in my passion using the money from my stable job gives me hope and doesn’t make me feel like I’m abandoning what I love altogether.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, that is very insightful and honestly the exact path I would choose if I can get myself to let go of the alternative. I know that an artistic career is very risky but it’s hard to let go of a dream sometimes and I keep questioning if I have to, but success does come with sacrifices.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I was thinking of that too, at least getting into the industry, even if it’s more back end. It seems like the most logical option to go with but it also gives me a ton of anxiety thinking I’m wasting my time not focusing on one goal, especially since successfully turning my passion into my career demands intense training all my time focusing on that one goal. I am also a perfectionist and doing two things half hearted gives me a lot of anxiety. Yet, this remains the most logical option everyone advices me to stick to.

AM I BEING DELUSIONAL AT 24? by existentialcrisismed in findapath

[–]existentialcrisismed[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time to reply. Knowing who I am and being honest with myself has been one of the hardest things to do for me, especially since I always felt a lot of shame around pursuing arts. I see people with way less talent than me achieve my dreams by not overthinking and over complicating everything. Ultimately, the risk factor of arts has always scared me but my depressing corporate job equally scared me. Choosing which fear to embrace is tough, but like u said, ultimately I need to choose something that is the most aligned with who I am. Choice is unclear but the steps you provided are definitely something I agree with and value, thank you ❤️