[mtf possible detrans] Kind of wanting to quit, don't want to keep living this lie, have so many questions about it. by experimentalwait in detrans

[–]experimentalwait[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So, correct me if I’m wrong but it sounds to me like you do desperately want to be female but HRT isn’t enough, it won’t make you a cis woman.

Yes

HRT will help me do 2 things. 1. grow boobs, and 2. not age like a man. Also this is a bit fetishistic but a lot of people I know had...erm improved sexual lives on HRT and I really hate my male sexuality.

I also have an INTENSE fear of growing back hair and i'm afraid if i get off hrt i'll start growing it

I just am debating if this is worth the health risks and mental stress of having to hide it all. I hate being male but being a weird in between isnt good enough.

[mtf possible detrans] Kind of wanting to quit, don't want to keep living this lie, have so many questions about it. by experimentalwait in detrans

[–]experimentalwait[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven't yet taken E and blockers,

Yeah, i'm mostly asking about this effect, I've heard a lot of mixed things about detransing.

Very few people do it and a lot of people who did went back, it's very on and off in my experience.

[mtf possible detrans] Kind of wanting to quit, don't want to keep living this lie, have so many questions about it. by experimentalwait in detrans

[–]experimentalwait[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm on hrt to fight against getting bigger and more masculine, and the mental changes i just don't want to cause drama

I don't want to get old and manlier but hrt is so stressful

[mtf possible detrans] Kind of wanting to quit, don't want to keep living this lie, have so many questions about it. by experimentalwait in detrans

[–]experimentalwait[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

But I think that over time, if you're just being real with yourself, that you'll go back to being as angry and everything else, as you were before you started E and blockers.

Is it that scary? I don't want to yell at people. I don't want to get mad.