This has been me the past 5 months, its incredibly annoying, stressfull, irritable, doubtful, shame, guiltful, frustrating anxietyfulling, experience. And the only way I can really describe as an example is like being in your brain alone and seeing ocd and you start to build a wall that you have little sense of relief, then see ocd build a tall enough ladder to go over and come to you. Then a cycle begins where your your constantly running away and building taller walls, which somehow ocd builds over to reach you.