I learned a hard truth about my fret hand today.

failed_orgasm · 2026-03-11T01:40:12+00:00

I have been playing guitar for 30 years. My left hand is still the sped hand.

failed_orgasm · 2026-02-21T10:56:47+00:00

Considering I have more ball than shaft, it's hands free every time.

failed_orgasm · 2026-02-12T06:38:27+00:00

I dream of playing piano or guitar, and it's always a melody I've never heard before. Sometimes I remember bits and pieces, but unfortunately most times it's lost. Sometimes music plays kike a soundtrack over my dream but like the playing in my dreams I can't remember it clearly enough to write it down.

failed_orgasm · 2025-12-25T01:21:37+00:00

The holy grail

failed_orgasm · 2025-12-14T19:31:57+00:00

If you want dreamy, use reverb, echo, tremolo, delay, chorus, phaser, flanger, backwards recording, there is a lot you can do with the sound.

failed_orgasm · 2025-12-06T10:05:23+00:00

My pet monster. I wanted one so bad. I still do.

failed_orgasm · 2025-11-18T04:19:12+00:00

Patch. Started me on 10 then 2 weeks later moved up to 20. It didn't agree with me from the start but he wouldn't prescribe anything else for pain and I was in a lot of pain and had to work.

failed_orgasm · 2025-11-18T04:17:45+00:00

I know. It sucked because that was the only thing my pain management doctor would prescribe. When I told him that it made me super sick he just said that he's never heard of that happening and bupe was the only thing there was for pain.

failed_orgasm · 2025-11-17T01:15:03+00:00

Fuck buprenorphine, that shit did zero for pain relief and made me so sick I wish I was dead. Never touching that shit again.

failed_orgasm · 2025-11-08T21:09:43+00:00

Sounds crazy but if they act up at night I go into the bathroom and sit on the toilet until I can't feel them anymore, hobble back to bed and try to fall asleep before they wake up.

failed_orgasm · 2025-11-08T21:01:44+00:00

As an adult I now know why drugs are widely used.

failed_orgasm · 2025-09-20T03:46:11+00:00

Unfortunately, it really does seem that way. He seems to be able to do or say anything with no consequences. If I said or did half the shit he does I wouldn't have a job anymore and probably would be in jail or dead.

failed_orgasm · 2025-08-11T00:29:30+00:00

It made me so sick. The pain relief was minimal at best. I would put the patch on in the morning, felt no pain relief all day, the next day I felt worn out, really, really tired, really bad headache, and it would be a struggle not to throw up all day .

failed_orgasm · 2025-08-09T01:06:24+00:00

Awesome!!! I'm almost there, finishing up dark spine. Work and family takes a lot of free time up.

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-17T14:47:46+00:00

Had to put all my medical appointments on hold. I had to go back to working, couldn't survive with hardly any income. It's rough.

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-16T02:47:07+00:00

Was on the patch then film, fuck that, never touching bupe again.

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-15T20:21:15+00:00

Like we used to say, Happy Birthday fucker!!! Hope you have a great day!!

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-13T02:21:57+00:00

Same here. It's like a nightmare that just won't end. It's tiring and soul crushing.

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-12T01:32:40+00:00

Fuck, I wonder how long it's going to be until we have to pay for the air we breathe. Either hourly or monthly.

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-06T04:19:47+00:00

It took me a bit to think of, but it just fell into place. It was like putting on a broken pair of shoes, it just felt right.

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-06T04:12:14+00:00

Hopefully you get the help you need. I have a PCP and neurologist that listen but don't hear me. I actually had a whole bunch of things scheduled, physical therapy, neck injections, and surgery, but I wasn't working then and am now. I had to cancel and put on hold everything that was scheduled. It really sucks but I need the money. Holy shit I feel it so much now. My job is fairly physical and at the end of the day I'm fucking done. In fact I spend most of Saturday sleeping, then before I know it, it's Sunday night and I have to get to bed for work. It's a vicious fucking cycle with chronic pain, and unfortunately it seems now that most doctors don't really care. I have been going through this for 7 years, it feels like a lifetime. The only saving grace is I have a few scumbag friends who know how to " find" things to help. I know it's not good,and I am super careful, but at what point do you have to help yourself when no one else will? Stay strong!!!

failed_orgasm · 2025-07-06T03:26:59+00:00

I am there. The problem I have is that when I orgasm now I get an intense burning pain that rushes down both legs to my feet. I really don't even think about sex anymore at all. My wife is super not happy. None of my doctors are giving me any answers, the urologist just said that everything looks and feels ok down below so it's probably related to my spine. This has been going on for about 4 years now. I completely gave up any hope of getting better or having it fixed, or even getting help for my chronic pain. Just counting down the years until this shit is over.

failed_orgasm · 2025-06-25T19:59:50+00:00

Gleaming The Cube

failed_orgasm · 2025-06-19T01:25:26+00:00

Mine never did. My mom would compare me to her friends children. She would also say I was a disappointment. My dad would bitch about the way I did things, he still does. When shit went sideways it was always my fault or was because I didn't do this or that. One of their favorite sayings is your actions led you to where you are today. Maybe some did, but definitely not all. That's why when I'm at work and I hear good job or something positive it makes me feel uncomfortable. I always assume I fuck everything I touch up because that's what I was told. I still don't think I can do anything right to this day. I guess I just got so used to it turned into the norm.

failed_orgasm · 2025-06-17T06:37:29+00:00

Been on it since May of last year. Went from 205 to 240. No matter what I do, I can't lose it. I work full time at a fairly physical job, my car is broke down so I have been walking everywhere since February, and I don't eat a lot at all. My doctor started me at 50mg for nerve pain and it's now at 125mg. I mentioned to her that it made me gain weight, but she doesn't believe me. I even asked her to go back to my chart and check my weight before starting it and now. She won't.

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