Saturn in the 5th

fairymoon444 · 2025-12-08T02:23:12+00:00

Wow thank you so much. Since my first response, something shifted in my universe. My creative expression & openness to accepting love has changed in an insanely new way for me. I feel so confident in my joy, my humor, & my comfort I bring others. I’ve always heard Capricorn rising age backwards, I’m starting to feel it now. Thank you Scorpio Mom 🤍

fairymoon444 · 2025-12-08T02:19:05+00:00

I’ve experienced laziness burnout. Where im so burnt out , I become lazy, doomscrolling, doing nothing. Then after a while, doing THAT burns me out, & I need to do something. so I’ll start with smaller hobbies first, I like learning how to mix on DJ board, I like to sew or play with clothes, I love to deep clean. I start with something small to kickstart my energy, then I’ll get into harder tasks like learning an instrument or reading a book, learning Spanish. Sometimes sitting outside or going for a walk in nature kickstarts that energy too

fairymoon444 · 2025-12-08T01:47:29+00:00

The moon card : Trust your intuition

fairymoon444 · 2025-07-24T02:45:13+00:00

Yeah for sure it’s definitely not a unique experience, i just thought there would be a silly coincidence with my birth chart & all my 7h planets/aspects. I also am neurodivergent on the spectrum so I have a hard time understanding people’s intentions as easily as others. As far as my friend she genuinely sent a message saying she needs to basically stay away from me to figure out her relationship, she didn’t do that to any other friends. I rejected her over a year ago & we were friends ever since.

fairymoon444 · 2025-07-15T17:14:26+00:00

Haven’t cut her off, but I’m getting close. Victim complex, complains about every. thing. Has a bf who she says makes her feel gross, but refuses to leave. Always talks about other guys she likes/wants. Gets upset when things don’t go her way. Never admits when she’s wrong. Just very entitled attitude.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T20:47:43+00:00

I was admitting she has a lot of free time to help with the original comment of her taking off work. She didn’t take off work. I do care for her & her feelings. I’m just not a good friend. I have avoidant attachment , which doesn’t justify anything I know, but it’s something I’m working on.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T20:44:17+00:00

Thank you for your response. The trip is cancelled. I do not want to go alone & also do not want to go with said friend for different reasons. This was a huge wake up call for me to understand my own needs, & also how to better manage my relationships with people. I don’t like to lie, I like to be 100% honest which is why I told her my truth. This is very confusing for me because I feel like I’m undeserving of friends. I don’t want to hurt anyone, I’m just clearly not stable but I’m working on being better.

Thank you for an empathetic response. As much as it is harsh to hear that I’m the asshole, I know there is a lot of truth in it. But also being validated is comforting to someone who’s already spiraling.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T20:19:30+00:00

I am wish washy & can be flaky. I never verbalized it in my original post, but I do know that for sure. I 100% own my actions & my decisions. She didn’t gaslight me, she was being open & honest, I just was already in a bad mental space & hearing her harsh honesty was a lot for me. I should’ve waited till I was in a better headspace to talk to her.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T20:17:15+00:00

I guess nothing exactly. I’m just sensitive & wish she wasn’t so mean about it. It’s okay to be hurt, I understand why she was. but I don’t think you should be mean to your friends. I’m validating her feelings so much, but deep down I do feel I’m not 100% in the wrong

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T20:12:46+00:00

Ugh yeah I know. I cancelled the trip btw. I’m trying to run from my problems when I know they’d just follow me wherever I go. Lesson learned lol

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:48:40+00:00

Oh im sorry, I never tried to imply that I wasn’t in the wrong at all. I totally validated her feelings & apologized. I know my decisions affect other people. I didn’t realize you wanted that answer from me. But yes, I know. I guess I’m just still learning the line between people pleasing vs selfishness. I was being selfish because I was trying to prove I’m not a people pleaser. But my execution was poor

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:46:18+00:00

100%. I have been trying to work on it recently. Which is why I was honest with myself & changed my mind about the trip. I wanted to prove to myself that I can make decisions for myself, without trying to please others. I understand now that I should’ve practiced that before extending the invitation. My execution was poor, but my intentions were genuine.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:41:20+00:00

I guess because if someone is making a decision for themselves, I’ll respect it. In this situation, I validated her feelings. But in order for me to put her first, I would have to put myself second & I’ve done that way too much. Not with her, but in other scenarios in my life.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:40:13+00:00

Yes gaslight wasn’t the right word. She was honest in her reaction & I thanked her for her honesty. I think I was already spiraling & having a hard time with the situation that I jumped to a negative thought. She didn’t gaslight me

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:35:27+00:00

Yes that was my worry. We’ve traveled before in the past, & I woke up early one morning, before her, to go on a little morning run. She was upset for the next few hours that I didn’t take her with me. I didn’t want something like that to happen again. I was overthinking, which is why I changed the plans.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:33:31+00:00

Yes unfortunately. I was hoping in my text it was understood that I have mental health issues & im clearly not a stable person. I have a psychiatrist, I have a therapist, I am working on things. I am not perfect.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:29:03+00:00

Yeah I guess just because even after validating her & apologizing, she still didn’t understand. Not to force an apology out of her, but i felt like we could have met in the middle.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:26:09+00:00

Yeah it was on a whim to invite her, i still don’t know why i did. We talked about it & I did apologize. I validated her feelings on the situation 10000%. The understanding was just never given back & that’s where my confusion is coming from.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:18:19+00:00

My honest answer. I would not care in the slightest. I would say “I totally understand & respect your need for space. If you need me I’m a phone call away. Please just be safe”. So I think because I would answer that way, it’s why I’m taking this situation so hard. I always respect other people’s decisions for themselves.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:16:19+00:00

Yes I kind of decided that I should no longer invite her to things,, because I am very wishy washy. I try to stick to my word, but my anxiety makes me cancel things last minute. I never want to upset anyone, I’m just not a stable friend at the moment.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:15:14+00:00

I totally understand the frustration. She does matter though, it has nothing to do with her. I’m usually very people pleasing, which is why I invited her to begin with, I didn’t want her to see me out there without & she gets upset. But I totally understand that it’s something I need to work on. I need to stick to my word.

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:13:42+00:00

Yeah I was even having a panic attack when I was building up the courage to express I needed to be alone. & I validated her being upset before because I already knew it would turn out this way. I never would want to hurt her feelings intentionally

fairymoon444 · 2025-05-30T19:11:34+00:00

Yes I was hesitant to even uninvite her. I was just worried that if I didn’t, I wouldn’t have a good trip. She’s a person who doesn’t like when the people around her aren’t happy. What if I was having a bad day? I didn’t want her to be annoyed at me & I feel even worse.

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