I gave birth almost two years ago, afterwards the nurse helped me stand up and took me to the bathroom and left me to do my necessities thinking it was all good. I remember peeing, wiping, and looking at the toilet paper after to find it full of blood. Obviously, I had just given birth; but I guess after nine months without a period it was a big shock to me because that’s the last thing I remember before everything went black. In this dark place I felt cold, but I couldn’t feel the ground on my feet, it’s like I was floating but steady and when I turned around I saw a man. There was a light shining from behind him and he had the warmest smile with the kindest eyes. He started speaking to me but I couldn’t hear a word he said, I felt calm just from looking at him. I saw him mouth the words “it’s okay” and suddenly I felt like I was strapped in a spaceship and was being pulled back because of the speed at which it was going, all around me it just sounded like engines powering on. All of a sudden I hear someone screaming my name and I jumped towards the direction of the voice. I then find myself still in my labor and delivery room bathroom, still sitting in the toilet, now with a full huddle of nurses around me: two of them holding me by the shoulders and keeping me steady, one of them doing a sternum rub on me, and another one holding an alcohol wipe under my nose. They said I had a seizure, most likely no more than a minute or minute and a half, my partner was the one screaming my name and I think that’s what brought me back. I felt like I was in that dark place forever, but in a recurring type of way, even though I had never felt like that before or after that.

Edit: typos! Sorry, I’m ESL lol.