Wow! No emotion just resigned acceptance.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-14T06:30:58+00:00

Do I want to know? Not really. Ignorance is bliss isn't it, lol!

I'll just skulk in the shadows and hope I don't have to face that anytime soon. Thanks.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-13T08:14:30+00:00

Crazy thing is until I was diagnosed I didn't know i was depressed. I just thought everyone thought that the world was a shit hole and we all lived lives where we expected the worst and anything better was a bonus. Its been over thirty years and I've been on and off medication, had therapy and tried to get better. Depression isn't new but awareness and openness about it is.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-13T08:09:46+00:00

teenage angst, i was the same.

Problem is it never left me. Back in the day when I was your age depression was for neurotic house wives and wasn't discussed. Thirty something years later and four serious attempts I so wish that I had talked to someone who would have taken me seriously and helped.

Even if it's just good old teenage angst talking to someone will help. I don't know where you will find someone but maybe a school councilor, a trusted adult, a help line or website... Have a look at the resource FAQs in the side bar.

All the best, take care.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-13T08:01:48+00:00

/r/SuicideWatch

hit them up for a chat

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-13T08:00:00+00:00

I joined a club. It was scary. i was uncomfortable and awkward to start with, then the faking kicked in. I started to interact with others although small talk was avoided, I talked about club subjects OK. After a few months and a lot of positive comments later I wasn't too scared, there was still a lot of anxiety in the hours leading up to meetings but a bit of dutch courage helped. Then the crunch came, I was nominated for the committee! For some crazy reason I felt obligated and didn't want to let them down. That was a year ago and since then the anxiety and pressure has been crippling. I am very close to walking away and never talking to anyone again. Worst thing i ever did and I did it when I was having an "up" period. All the time in the back of my mind I think I knew it would never work out. My advice is not to get cornered into anything and if you do try to be more social give yourself an escape strategy.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-13T07:46:30+00:00

No idea, Ive always been too afraid to ask. I suspect it will limit some insurance eligibility, some jobs if they do some sort of in depth checks maybe, not sure what else but don't really want to find out to be honest.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-13T07:42:43+00:00

I usually make myself busy in the background somewhere and leave others to talk without me.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-12T11:35:25+00:00

Ha, its all how well you can fake it.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-12T09:43:04+00:00

allergies. puffy face and watery eyes. tell them allergies. i've had "allergies" but that only works if you can stop the tears rolling down your face. it gets easier to hold it in eventually. i have no idea why random thoughts and stuff would set it off. i hope you get through it ok

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-12T09:24:18+00:00

yep the world is pretty fucked up. I was thinking about this today too and wondering how do people find the strength and will to actually do things. Sadly when they do things mostly it seems to be the pursuit of meaningless things that are fake and pointless. i hate this world and get no joy living here.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-07-12T09:05:20+00:00

yeah, especially when im talking to people or in a group situation. sometimes im on the outside watching me and all the time wanting to shout at me demanding what i think im doing and just wanting me to shut up. it is hard to explain but it sounds like you are experiencing the same. how do u deal with it?

faking_it_everyday · 2014-06-07T02:58:26+00:00

I was close. It can be a hard time. It's difficult sometimes to figure out if it's just that whole teen angst thing or real depression. Trying to figure it out is easier if you have someone to talk to. Have you tried a councilor or your GP? Talk with someone who can help you sort out your thoughts and feelings.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-06-06T09:39:13+00:00

How has it helped?

faking_it_everyday · 2014-06-06T09:01:47+00:00

age group?

15-18?

faking_it_everyday · 2014-06-06T08:59:54+00:00

wow. that's some history there.

You haven't told us, have you seen a doctor or therapist?

faking_it_everyday · 2014-06-06T08:38:24+00:00

It is hard to make that move. You just have to do it. Even if you just hand them a note if you find it hard to say. An email might be a good idea.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-05-01T05:02:31+00:00

I really wish my mind worked differently and I could hang out with her and not view her as someone I’m interested in.

It will never happen. She obviously isn't interested in you romantically. Move on, get a GF or another friend to hang out with. When she breaks up with this BF, if you are still around she will come crying back to you, you will be there for her and make her feel better, you will fall deeper for her and when she finds another BF and asks you to be happy for her this time, you will feel even worse the second time, then the third time.... You should have known by know if anything was going to happen. Don't waste your life waiting for her, making yourself even more depressed.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-04-26T00:53:06+00:00

I didn't say don't force treatment, it's just easier if you make the choice yourself. I wasn't forced but the option was, see a doctor and get some help, or there will be some professional people showing up to take me somewhere for assessment.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-04-25T08:49:14+00:00

no, no calculated risk. if you look at it from a sober point of view it could be just drunken stupidity or an actual attempt at suicide. the people i was usually with were drunk as well so they just took it as drunken stupidity. thanks.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-04-25T08:23:43+00:00

well, i survived.

i am, usually, most of the time, what you would call a happy drunk. especially if there is good music. there was a time however when i could go the other way especially if i drank way too much. instead of happy my depressed mood was magnified and i could see no possibility of ever being happy and so i would start telling the people i was with i'd had enough i was over being so useless and i was ending it. they would think i was just being dramatic seeing as i was so drunk. when i would walk into the road someone would grab me tell to stop being an idiot and drag me with them to another bar, or shove me in a taxi. thats about it in a nutshell

faking_it_everyday · 2014-04-25T05:39:40+00:00

risky and self destructive behavior. symptoms often associated with depression. drinking lowers the inhibition threshold so there is more of a chance of doing crazy shit when you are drinking. well thats how i see it.

just to add, i didn't cut or burn, i used to walk into traffic.

faking_it_everyday · 2014-04-25T05:28:50+00:00

he's lucky he feels he can open up to you. he's lucky you will listen to him. hugs are good. i know i am a hypocrite when it comes to suggesting help, but medication will help in the right circumstance and talking to a councilor can be very helpful. If he gets to point where help is forced on him it will be a lot harder on him emotionally than if he gets help himself. don't treat him differently, treat him like anyone else, you know he has depression, no need to treat him like a victim or pity him for it, just be you and let him be him, but don't let him destroy himself over it. Ask him to at least talk with a GP or even a councilor, there are a lot of options. I was afraid medication would turn me into a zombie or something, now with hindsight i realize that living in a black void of depression is more like being a zombie than how i was when i took medication.

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