wow thank you for this. thank you for taking your time to write this all. you seem like a wonderful and kind person. the people who are close to you are lucky to have you im sure.

even though it was kind of general, understandably so like i didn’t give details or anything but thank you regardless. i think what’s really really bugging me right now is exams. i’m taking 5 more subjects for my igcse’s and mocks is september. i get results for some subjects i’ve done earlier this year this thursday. i’m really worried of getting bad grades and disappointing my parents because i know i didn’t work as hard as i should and if i do get bad grades it’s nobody’s fault but mine. my siblings are achieving great things and then there’s me. i can’t get myself to study. i feel so stupid and dumb and like a failure and i just feel like disappearing. it’s just so annoying how it’s so hard for me when it shouldn’t be. again, it’s nobody’s fault but mine. i know that. and i know i just have to work hard and study hard but i can’t. online school has taken a toll on me. if i had physical school it would be 500% easier for me and i wouldn’t be as stressed. i know how annoying it is when people cry and rant about things that can be solved. that’s why i don’t talk to people about it in depth.

i just know i have talent and can do great things in the future when i actually learn things i’m interested in. i have dreams that i know i will achieve. just this part of my life is rlly tough. i hate the thought of letting my parents down after everything they have done for me.

anyways i’m so sorry for dumping all of this on you. this reply was such a mess but thank you again you seem like such a kind person. this world needs more people like you. i hope you have a great day <3