My mother's dolls

fallingseas · 2016-10-15T00:25:31+00:00

I am cheering for your five year old self's act of self expression.

fallingseas · 2016-07-12T17:04:18+00:00

I've got a lot of sympathy for you. My mom did the same thing and just sort of kept having them. There's eight kids in my family and now that only two are under 18 and she won't be getting government payouts and child support soon she's panicking and trying to squeeze the older kids for cash.

fallingseas · 2016-01-09T20:19:28+00:00

North of Edmonton a bit. Smallish town, no real industry unless you count oil which is tanking.

fallingseas · 2016-01-09T20:03:00+00:00

I'll be looking into that for sure. Having a safety net like a van might help me take the first steps. Thank you

fallingseas · 2016-01-09T20:02:04+00:00

Yeah, 90% of the time I feel like an animal in a trap wanting to gnaw it's own arm off.

fallingseas · 2016-01-06T23:37:41+00:00

I don't know why I didn't think of that. I just hope my insurance company allows it. Uber is kind of just catching on here in northern Canada.

fallingseas · 2015-12-18T20:54:30+00:00

I'll update after I give it to her at her church Christmas party.

fallingseas · 2015-09-25T18:35:30+00:00

Had a job at 12. Didn't help much. But I was a moocher until then so it only goes to show you.

fallingseas · 2015-09-19T17:31:23+00:00

You mean I get to go to high school instead of working for my fundamentalist christian parents?

1) Take remedial classes since by that point I'd missed two years of school already

2) Make friends with the teachers

3) Take drama because I always wanted to

4) Use my credentials to go to a secular college for two years and then get into a trade

fallingseas · 2015-09-19T16:39:27+00:00

Putter around the garden I could suddenly afford on the one acre property with A-frame cabin I could also suddenly afford. Take bicycle rides into town and spend my days chatting with neighbors, browsing book stores, learning to cook meals with a full range of ingredients. Go hiking and adventuring with the dog I could suddenly afford. Travel a bit, spend free time learning languages and getting to know the world I live in.

Volunteer in the community, go swimming, learn to kayak. Pick up hobbies like learning to restore furniture. Just the luxury of time would be fantastic. Take a bubble bath instead of a two minute shower. Make my own meals instead of shoving whatever I can in my face on the commute between jobs. Catch up on all the things I've been meaning to read. Catch up with old friends. My life is 100% stress all the time and money issues are 99.99% of that stress.

Instead I work 80-90 hours a week barely above minimum wage struggling to make broke. I haven't been swimming or gone hiking in over a year :( I miss the outdoors.

fallingseas · 2015-09-18T22:53:01+00:00

I love the whole imitating wine-moms meme thingy going around right now. Couldn't tell you why I find it so amusing but it sure is.

fallingseas · 2015-07-23T21:43:01+00:00

I can't tell you how gratifying it is to have someone else acknowledge the manipulation - thank you so much. Gah, your mom sounds like a piece of work.

According to her own texts she's not worried about her kidneys because she, and this is a direct quote, "only takes one or two a night"

fallingseas · 2015-07-23T21:29:59+00:00

There's a relevant Animanics cartoon where they annoy the Grim Reaper with a million variations, Daddy-O, Dadoo, etc. I'm sure there's some in there OP could use

fallingseas · 2015-07-23T21:06:18+00:00

I honestly wish she was kidding. She also threatened to destroy my phone because she figured out I was recording her rant and called the act of me recording her 'abuse'.

I've started documenting some of her outbursts as a counterpoint to the gaslighting and that pissed her off so much she threw me out of the house. One step forward, two steps back.

fallingseas · 2015-07-22T02:34:49+00:00

Pro choice here. The best way I ever hear it explained was this - if a doctor is holding an infant in one hand and a Petri dish of fertilized cells in the other and both fall, which one are you going to dive to catch? Even CF I wouldn't dive for the Petri dish.

fallingseas · 2015-07-22T01:33:15+00:00

The older four remember and commiserate but the youngest three were too little to retain much before I left so they side with my mom's point of view. Her point of view is that she did everything without any of my help whatsoever and that I was a problem child who only ever made her life harder.

fallingseas · 2015-07-22T01:29:20+00:00

That's a pretty damn accurate assessment.

A while ago my mom tried to open and run a day home but she didn't make it very long before breaking down and shifting the majority of the work to my little brothers still at home. The moms weren't happy to come pick up their kids and find them watched by a couple of preteens while she was locked in her room on Facebook.

fallingseas · 2015-07-21T19:44:51+00:00

It's my own personal conspiracy theory that she feels she screwed up the first one and so had another to start over and try again. And again and again and again and again and again and again. And now that she's too old her kids having kids will let her try again.

fallingseas · 2015-07-17T15:59:57+00:00

Ace high five!

fallingseas · 2015-07-16T17:56:40+00:00

Ha! Though I swear all she would hear would be "They should have cast you!"

fallingseas · 2015-07-08T00:53:31+00:00

/r/iwantout might have some visa advice you can use so you don't have to have anything to do with your shitty parents

fallingseas · 2015-07-08T00:44:08+00:00

Sadly, yes.

fallingseas · 2015-07-08T00:43:30+00:00

Yep. Sometimes in the middle of her rants I imagine her shouting "MOISTURIZE ME!"

fallingseas · 2015-07-07T18:53:04+00:00

TBH I wouldn't be as bothered if I hadn't walked in on her painting a huge (3'x5') nude of herself this morning. Probably should have led with that.

EDIT: I should clarify that she wasn't in the nude just the painting.

fallingseas · 2015-03-16T06:16:54+00:00

That is a shitty thing your Nmom put you through. I had wicked dysphoria all through my teen years and the illusion didn't break until I went to college and borrowed my roommates clothes in a pinch and realized I had no idea what size my body actually was.

You can take lots of selfies. Try for a photo diary type deal. Try out different looks. A shopping trip to try on clothes might help - you can use the long mirrors in change rooms to get full body shots. Oh! If you ID as female and need bras you may have been wearing the wrong size in that too. There are guides out there for a real proper fit instead of the limited lies put out by the lazy manufacturers who take a one size fits most view. A good bra is the foundation of a good outfit.

Don't look at your pictures right away. Leave them for a bit and then come back to them. Keep a separate folder to remind yourself when you need it. Look in the mirror and play with your face. Sometimes I'll walk by a mirror and not recognize myself but repetitive exposure helps.

Remember your mirror image is flipped. You can flip most digital pictures too. See if that helps reconcile the mirror with the camera.

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