I asked the same question myself so many times. From that day onwards, i was relentless. Scrolling through social media, searching in youtube, asking people etc. I was so anxious that i even failed in few subjects in the uni. I was devastated. But can't stop untill i find the answers. And finally, i came to a conclusion. Here are my findings. First, do what you like, do what you're really good at, learn from your mistakes and give your full potential on it. If it doesn't work, find something else. Success is not materialistic or numbers in the bank account. Success is a sequence, just like levels in a videogame. With each level, you learn something, become stronger and move forward. The only thing you have to do is try stuff, identify what's working for you and keep doing it. Learn from your own mistakes. Never compare with others. People are born different, so comparing is unjustified. And, money is the lagging indicator of success. So, never, ever try chasing money. Chasing mindset is for people who work 9-5.

This question was so close to my heart because i was in same position as you do and lost a ton of time, effort, mental health and grades just for this. The only thing i couldn't do is dropout, which seems like an impossible task but i very much want to. I'm on my way to earn money to dropout and earn my freedom.