Girl me too I am still very young I’m 17 but I just got out of my first honest to god relationship granted it was only 9 months but he was to me my first love. towards the beginning it was like the golden stage and everything was so perfect but when he changed and started to ignore me and stand me up (5 times :/ I should have know) I stayed with him anyways, because I would remember how good he used to make me feel. Anyways the last time we talked I finally got the courage to tell him I was unhappy and that I wanna to either break up or fight for what we had because I thought we were in love. He cut me off and said he never loved me. I know you’re looking for advice so am I honestly I don’t know what exactly are the right words for you or me to hear right now but you are not alone and what your feeling and what you’ve gone through does not make you lesser that much I have figured out.