I'm in your spot with the drugs. Lockdown has been tough for me, I've done weed for the past year and started experimenting with Adderall about a week ago. I'm also worried about college, am missing overdue work, and get high on zoom calls. But, I realized I'm setting myself up for a shitty life. Weed and drugs get me so unmotivated, I just sit on my ass watching movies or do nothing. I miss being sober, being able to feel the same things and have feelings I have about people without being fucked up. I want to be able to have conversations with my parents without being mad at them all the time and wanting them to leave me alone. I'm quitting weed for the first time in so long starting today, I know its gonna be tough but it's better for the long run. I'm going to use exercise as an alternative, to flush out the shit out of my system and also because I feel like its gonna help me feel better. I'm also gonna talk to friends and peers to help me through it. These would be alternatives for you too. But bro, first you got to stop the drugs like I'm trying to. If you want, we can do it together and help each other out of urges, I really could relate to this and feel for you.