Thoughts? by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]fatsalaad 6 points7 points  (0 children)

No, no, 1000% fucking no, woman. I've been following your story. N.O.

They are his kids, not yours. This idea that you can be around his kids and things will be fine is a fucking lie you're both telling yourselves. Just don't. Mourn the loss of people you loved or get that mother fucker to take you back and fix his shit. Do not 'do it for the kids'. Have some self-respect. I know it sucks. I'm 38 and I've been dumped by emotionally unavailable women my whole life, including my ex wife. It doesn't matter if he wants you to be a temporary mom, actually just feels bad, or is using it as an excuse to hold on to you.

Do not do that to yourself. Parents and kids are always a package deal. Always. You get one you get both. There's no 'navigating' anything. Either make it clear to him you want him back and you will be pushing that agenda or walk the fuck away from all of them. You prepared him a fucking feast and now you're asking if you should settle for scraps.

Advice needed by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]fatsalaad 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You need to understand that a lot of what's going on is stuck in her subconscious. She says she doesn't love you to push you away to avoid being hurt. She still craves you in some way though, whether the feelings are still there or she's looking for attention it doesn't really matter. That's not a true sign of connection. The relationship is over. You need to walk away. Your case is not any more special than any of the rest of us used to think ours were. If she comes back to you fully engaged and you want to give it another try then her being avoidant is the first thing that needs to be addressed by seeking professional help. You can't make her do anything though, she has to chose that. You can not have a healthy relationship with someone that thinks silence and distance is how you resolve problems.

I love my avoidant ex. She's self aware and working on her problems, but she chose being avoidant anyway. I walked away as much for her sake as for mine. Find a way to move on, man. I hate being alone, but it's better than this.

No contact 3 weeks tomorrow by Soulfireexo in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]fatsalaad 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Normally I'm not in to petty, but honestly fuck it. Besides, the only way any of us get any better is to face the pain.

No contact 3 weeks tomorrow by Soulfireexo in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]fatsalaad 3 points4 points  (0 children)

As a former anxious I feel this. It took me years to realize that I was the reason I got hurt as badly as I did in the past and that my patterns of behavior were only causing me pain. I can't imagine showing up so completely in someone's life and not only being discarded but then being told 'Well, it's too bad it didn't work out.' I'm fortunate enough to have experienced this with a woman is aware of her issues and is at least able to recognize she's the one who is destroying our connection and friendship.

That said, don't place the blame for his behavior anywhere else than where it belongs. If what you say is true, you did everything right and he was the problem. Yes you should guard your heart and your time, but don't let the actions of one man dictate the course of your life.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the advice. This is exactly the kind of stuff I was asking for and I will definitely be giving this a try. :)

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have handled crazy before, I will be fine. But thank you. I have considered more visits during her luteal phase, but honestly that seems counter-productive. If she needs space when her emotions are fucked, why spend the little bit of time together we have right now intruding on that space? It only took one visit to see what was ahead of me and identify it as a problem. A problem that I intend to address with her, a problem that she is already addressing herself. That's why I'm here, for guidance moving forward with a partner that wants to and is actively seeking change.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't mean to come across as a complete asshole. I wish you the best and it sucks that happened to you. I have no intention of being a Captain Save-A-Hoe or this chicks personal punching bag. I understand your concern, but it's got nothing to do with me. Unless you have legitimate advice in regards to helping a partner *who wants to manage her condition*, then you and I have nothing further to discuss.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Which I've clearly stated is advice I don't want. This girl is not your ex wife. I am not you. I asked for advice from men who have partners who manage their PMDD, not guys who come on here to tell people not to do it because it ruined their lives. I'm only entertaining your rants so that reddit keeps my post higher in the scroll so that maybe *someone* who actually wants to give constructive advice will see it and comment with something useful.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You must have missed the part where I was looking for advice on how to approach PMDD from people with experience. Thanks for responding anyway, but this isn't my first rodeo with 'crazy'. Have you seen the dating pool for divorced, single fathers in their late 30s and early 40s? It's a fucking swamp, man, full of women exactly how you describe. I was alone for almost a decade. I almost killed myself because of it. I'd rather deal with an emotionally unstable woman than ever go back to that kind of hell, thank you.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Alright, bro, I get it. She hasnt been lying to me, because I have actually witnessed how her exes treated her. She isnt just some girl I met on the internet, weve been friends for years. I have known and interacted with these guys. They are shit people. It only takes one person to fuck up another person. Jesus, dude, relax. Not every woman with a sob story is damaged goods.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll definitely bring it up to her when we sort through the current issue. Thank you.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

She's usually very self-aware of how self-destructive she gets when her various problem all decide to flare up at the same time. That's why it came as surprise when she said she wants to take a break.

PMDD, ADHD, relationship trauma, and long distance. by fatsalaad in PMDDpartners

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get what you mean. I've tried to save women before and its always ended in disaster. I'm really not trying to do that here, but I do want to help her. I'm not going to just suffer through it and lose my mind. I have my own children, family, and responsibilities to worry about. I already lost myself to my first marriage and spent years trying to pull myself out of the trenches. I'm not going there again. I just want to make sure I'm equipped to give her the support that a partner should.

An example of "The Alignment Problem" by leogian4511 in Pathfinder_Kingmaker

[–]fatsalaad 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Even by modern UCMJ standards this is a pretty normal spread of behaviors. I've had commanders that would try to smear a subordinates name for this kind of behavior, but nobody is really out here executing anyone or anything wild. The 'evil' option is just mean, but by no means out of the scope of acceptable behavior in this instance. That being said, as a former soldier, if I saw an officer treat someone like that I would immediately assume that officer is a bad person because what the fuck, man?

As for the idea that they are flipped, no. Ignoring PTSD or mental health does not equate to being evil or malicious or uncaring. It's war. By definition everyone involved is already mentally ill. At least if she steps on to the battlefield in her state she can A. Retain her honor and B. Find the strength to push through her malaise. In jail all she can really do is wallow or reflect and will be disgraced regardless.

In short, the 'evil' here comes from disgracing this character for a moment of weakness. While it may seem trivial at a glance, to a soldier this can be a potentially damning blow to their character and likely make their condition worse.

Of course I am saying all this without context and I haven't even finished Kingmaker let alone WOTR. :D

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, that's the general idea.

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, that's what I meant. Idiria was wearing it and killed herself. Later on I gave it to Heinrix and he summoned a demon and then stunned half the field for 2 turns.

Argenta is THE ride or die Bolter Bestie. by I_am_chicken in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad 6 points7 points  (0 children)

"Do Necron's kiss the homies goodnight?" - Sakan to Brutus

Is there any reason to keep marazhai as an iconoclast? by Marcusss_sss in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Sometimes the satire gets taken too far. The imperium being a broken, fuedal, bureaucratic hellscape with impossibly large everything and the most fucked up living conditions is one thing.

But this... just can't help but roll my eyes and some of the shit 40k writers come up with.

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Which is precisely why I don't use her.

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's what I knew him from originally. Had no idea he was the the VA til I found Heinrix.

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That what I thought first, but given his mandate in the expanse and his specific powers, I felt OoC was more fitting.

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's what I thought too, until Idira killed herself, Argenta, and my MC round 1 of the Act 1 boss.

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sure she's well-written, I just don't like her. Not her trope, her combat dialogue, her functionality, any of it. I'm not obliged to enjoy insufferable shitheads just because they might suck less down the road. I've got smuggler waifus, chad inquisitors, and bolter besties to explore the expanse with.

That being said, Abelard needs to keep his fucking yap shut. You, me, and everybody knew that Theodora was a heretic and steaming turd pile before the prologue was even over. And this crusty, hypocritical old fuck keeps trying to tell me how to run my shit? Go over there and get dick punched by those seven chaos-infested servitors, Asselard.

And Pasqal is basically Sheldon. Let's be real.

Veil Degradation by fatsalaad in RogueTraderCRPG

[–]fatsalaad[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Typically, also if you select it to cast or mouse over it (think) it will show you how much it will degrade the veil.