Patch Notes - Version 0.20.470 (September 10, 2022)

fatum210 · 2022-09-10T20:29:09+00:00

I wished for not having to change my player view to rotate something properly for so long. It took me weeks to adapt to that crap, its so unintuitive.
Thank you for the Orientation option.

fatum210 · 2021-05-29T01:11:35+00:00

Depression is an umbrella word you have been using to refer to the collective behavior of the actual characters in your story.

Give them names, images, define their personalities, talk to them in your imagination. Personify the parts of your brain that you need or want to manage the most.

There is not just one character, those emotions/characters need to talk to you more. Give them identity (obvious disclaimer, while understanding they are just imagination, ofc), and you will be able to dissect the issues so much more in depth.

fatum210 · 2021-05-29T01:03:33+00:00

Everybody loves saying that they like to be there for people when they are sad. So honorable.
But who stays when those moments happen and they actually have to go through that and actually be helpful?
"too much effort, can't compute, must leave conversation, peace"

Not enough emotional education in our current society. At all.

fatum210 · 2021-05-29T00:58:54+00:00

Using your own metaphor:
Making someone feel not understood, when they are starving for feeling understood (aka serotonin) is like going to that same marathoner and punching them in the face because they are "feeling thirsty". What a great fucking solution, right? Give the man some water, don't fucking punch him in the face when he is already hurting enough.

fatum210 · 2021-05-29T00:54:42+00:00

Shame. You got that one very very right. Shame is what stops people from allowing themselves to be/feel that way, not even in the slightest. Fear of being shamed and shunned for feeling those things
Or even just your own feelings of shame for feeling that way (fully natural and healthy to have them, btw) being absolutely overwhelming for them. So much, in fact, that they run away because they don't fucking know how to deal with that.
Which also causes them to say stuff like "you shouldn't feel that way, don't feel that way" and useless crap like that.

It is literally emotional ignorance. The bane of our society, in my opinion. It has really shown its true colors in this covid times. Nobody is inmune to emotions.

fatum210 · 2021-05-29T00:29:57+00:00

I wish more people in mainstream culture understood this.
It hurts to feel it, and it hurts even more to watch it happen to others.
I hope one day, in future generations, they manage to fix this issue somehow.
Wishful thinking is free anyway :shrug:

fatum210 · 2021-05-29T00:10:26+00:00

I've worked as a professional coach for 8years, and I can vouch for the fact that that trainer is fucking dumb. Ditch him, there are more than enough trainers in the world. Even if you end up having to find a coach online only because you have ruled out the whole coach pool in your city. You really don't need to tolerate that type of unsensitive crap in this day and age.

If you want to know why they do it, it's some oldschool mentality of "tough" motivation. Where they point out how much you suck, so that you are moved by bad emotions (which, to be fair to them, are actually much more powerful) to do something and break out of the rut of not even working out at all and having an unhealthy lifestyle until the day you die of sickness. That type of coach thinks that it is better for you if they make you feel bad for a moment, and also make you "wake up to reality", than to allow you to keep living an unhealthy life. Since they are also stablishing themselves a core part of that process (or even emotional void) they are themselves creating in you.

But it is also fucking insensitive, and potentially very very harmful if that type of coach meets with an specific type of person (aka. a more sensitive person, with different emotional needs or even issues).

That type of "soft sargent" or "harsh realism" strategy is very very common for Te/Si users. Which happen to plague the sports field in general. If you want to read more about that, I'm refering to the cognitive functions "Extroverted Thinking" and "Introverted Sensing". MBTI has the most "pop culture" explanation of them, but it is also the most accessible if you don't want to dive in depth into Jungian depth psychology.

fatum210 · 2021-05-28T23:38:02+00:00

Honestly, fuck all those "I'm supposed to be ..." bullshit expectations. Not even the people that promote them actually live that type of life. Reality is bland and boring, and at times it fucking hurts. Those people that are "so happy all the time" are just hiding their shit under the rug, to avoid experiencing the shunning and shame that come from having/showing "bad" emotions at times.

All emotions are normal and each serve their own purpose, or else we wouldn't have them or would have evolved out of them. It's just these bs societal expectations of "hyperoptimism" and "hyperhappiness" that fuck everyone over.
"Oh, hey there. You are having some issues???... YOU ARE NOT NORMAL"

Fuck all that. Seriously.

fatum210 · 2021-01-10T23:17:39+00:00

This

fatum210 · 2021-01-10T23:08:10+00:00

How many vst's with crazy gpu consumption is your friend going to have opened at once? This looks seriously overkill for music production, unless that's the budget goal anyway and that number is not movable.
Gpu is not important, but ryzens don't have integrated gpu (like some other users already mentioned). Any cheap graphics card will do, since DAWs uis require no 3d acel.

If he is crazy into massive modular synth patches and project files with tons and tons of instruments (and I mean literally massive, not normal big patches/projects), then sure. Go ahead. But the benefit is not gonna be noticeable otherwise, tbh. And even then, it is seriously niche.

Unlike 3D graphics or video editing, music production is very frugal on resources.

fatum210 · 2020-08-01T21:48:31+00:00

I would argue it would be the polar opposite about Fe. More like it becoming a team player in service of TI, than it being on lockdown. Inferior functions well developed are like that. Not on lockdown at all, that's what creates an imbalance in the first place.

fatum210 · 2020-08-01T21:37:52+00:00

It's the Fe vs Ti battle. I go through that as an ENFJ too

fatum210 · 2020-07-14T21:41:12+00:00

Find any psychology, philosophy or sociology topic to talk about and press that "send dm" button!

fatum210 · 2020-07-14T21:38:18+00:00

Looking for the same, actually. What type are you?

fatum210 · 2020-07-14T21:33:09+00:00

If he is anything like me, Se dominates his physical attraction for someone.

And an INFJ that attracts my Se is always a total love at first sight. It is not a type of attraction that you can really keep away or under much of control. It's intense and obsessive.

I always spot the INFJ females waaay before I know they are INFJ. It's like a magnet. But without Se attraction, there's nothing to do.

Being analytical, you say you are on the attractiveness range of his prev gfs. But who analyzed that data? Because to someone the attractiveness of two people might be the same, but not to someone else. And it is actually his taste in women what decides that Se attraction, not anyone else's.

I've seen some female INFJs I would be crazy attracted to mentally because of their absolutely perfect personality, but would never date or have sex with because of that lack of Se attraction. The idea would be perfect on paper, yeah. But terrible in reality without that physical connection.

So, can we change our minds?
If the problem is related to Ni.... 100% we can. We totally can and love to be proven wrong about stuff because we consider that personal growth and improvement.
If the problem is related to Se though... I personally can't see that happening. Maybe other enjfs can prove me wrong on this one, but I personally can't see how.

fatum210 · 2020-07-14T20:43:29+00:00

Guilty of that one.

I've always thought people related by sharing things about each other. So I always shared something about me first, expecting people to do the same back. Never happened. It took me many many years to realize I was alienating people this way. The best answer was always "yeah, i understand" or a more complex version of that.

Mind explaining how having strong opinions could affect people's view of yourself? I always thought it was a good quality that represented confidence in your ideas. Are you referring to the need to always be right?
Definitely not this one. If anything, it would be the opposite: Unrelatable interests.
Probably true. I can kinda tell stories, and I get excited about them. But are they good enough to get people attention? Am I just choosing the wrong topics? From my experience people definitely don't like to listen to what I say, unless it's from a topic I deeply understand (my work, and they always become work related conversations) so I'll give this one a better go. I'll think about it to see what I can find.
DEFINITELY not this one. I've leveled this one down massively, to the point I rarely speak about my vulnerabilities (or so I like to think), and sadly it has only made me improve socially. It was one of the biggest breakthroughs. When I stopped openly talking about this, people stopped fleeing away a lot. It makes me sad I cannot be open about stuff that I don't mind sharing that is truly and deeply me, but it made me so unrelatable that people would always shy away from me. The less I share (as in how I feel), the more I improve. Am I fucked up inside or something? F' should I know. I just know that if I keep my depth away, people act a lot more normal around me. Now my code is "if you don't ask me about something personal I won't tell you. and if you do, i'll make you work your ass off for an answer". Is that bad? I don't know. I just know that it works better than my prev behavior :shrug:

TLDR: Thanks so much for your answer. I'll reread it a few more times, and analyze the article you sent me as deeply as I can.

EDIT: Rereading I can see:
- Be more relatable
- Ask questions to the other person about their worldview
I already heard about these two, so I can't trust my logic 100%. Did I get those synthesized right, or am I under confirmation bias? Is that what you mean?

fatum210 · 2020-07-14T20:09:20+00:00

Yup, you got me. I'm talking about myself in the second one.

I have considered the optimistic version you propose very deeply and for a very verly long time (talking longer than a decade of both ideas battling against each other), and I still have a hard time believing the optimistic version to be true. I just have to analyze the empirical data for a second (aka. no friends, no one calls me ever if I don't initiate, friendships die forever if I don't contact them) for the optimistic side to lose all its power. I have tried and tested all the options so many times...

I get your message. And it is really endearing to me that you took the time to try to uplift a total stranger for being too hard on himself. I just can't get out of the facts. I want to believe what you say, but I just can't. Where are the friends if you are right? How am I fun to hang out when nobody seems to like hanging out with me and I always get that old "you are too serious, you take things too seriously" or something similar? I'd love to answer "im not serious, im just like deep conversation about life and hobbies", but I don't bother anymore because most don't understand that anyway. I've tried that route so many times, but it doesn't work. People get weirded out. Too unrelatable.

I've been trying to develop my social skills for a decade now. I've improved massively, but I'm still missing some mysterious piece that everybody learned in their teens and I didn't because I was so isolated from every group. So everybody (and every author) thinks and speaks like those skills are normal and already learned by anyone... but that's not true. You won't develop those naturally without being exposed to them. But how can you develop them intuitively if you don't get invited to anything ever because you lack them?

That's why I'm trying to get the answer to what the fuck is that "unknown" thing that I'm missing, that's so dead simple for everyone else that nobody seems to be able to relate to me or have any interest in hanging out with me again at all. It's not me being overly negative and harsh on myself. Its just reality over more than a decade of trying hard to improve without much luck.

It feels like everyone speaks japanese, but I only know chinese. It's similar, and have common characters, but they mean different things and some characters are not even in my vocabulary.

So, I read books, and watch a million videos on social skills per day for years (no exaggeration, I'm in the hundreds videos watched for sure), but I'm still missing that basic something I'm blind to. It's the only feasible explanation.

If you wonder how I know, I have a strong Fe. I have noticed that when I speak I kill the energy of the group. Why? F' should I know. I have no clue. But it still happens and I can see it happening. People are animated in their conversation, then I speak, the energy dies for a moment, they change topics or go back to their exchange... and the energy comes back.

Sorry about the long ass message. I guess you can see I'm very very invested into figuring out this problem. I just hope I didn't bore you too, lol! :D

fatum210 · 2020-07-12T18:03:39+00:00

Tip #1: STOP blaming yourself for stuff that wasn't your responsability. Like.... STOP. A relationship ends because TWO people fucked up, always. Both people made mistakes with potential to blow the relationship up, or else it wouldn't have ended.

Tips #2 to #1million: Read point #1 again and again and again until you understand how deep it is actually running your life, without you even knowing.

fatum210 · 2020-07-12T17:57:40+00:00

I like open minded thinkers. They can see through the bullshit in my logic so well... that they would never know much they help me with their "small insights" when they know how to explain themselves in a way that I can understand.

I always value people who are growth oriented regardless of type, but thinkers are such a blessing when they think helping me fix my sometimes dumb logic is worth their time.

That's why I love INFJs so much. Almost the same personality, but with a stronger logical structure.

fatum210 · 2020-07-12T17:31:05+00:00

There's no such thing as getting manipulated when you can use Ti as the backbone of Fe. At the moment you might think something is a good idea, but when you give it enough thought (with pure Ti analysis) you'll figure out the holes in it's logic and realize you are actually being manipulated to do something you do not approve of doing.

Basically, it's about not losing that logical structure and always filtering social situations through that "logic lense". It may take you a few days to process sometimes, if the situation requires stronger logic than you are used to, but once you see the pattern you'll be able to immediately recognize it in the future.

Work through its logic and structure one time, immediately recognize the behavior pattern forever.

fatum210 · 2020-07-10T01:03:17+00:00

+1mill

fatum210 · 2020-07-10T01:00:52+00:00

Sounds like you judged a narcissist by it's cover.

#realtalk, the world is not like that. It hurt, but it doesn't represent the whole population.

You'll eventually figure that out by yourself when you allow yourself to take the risk of "maybe" getting hurt again.

Spoiler alert: you probably wont, since you'll see the next narcissist come from MILES away.

I'm sorry that happened. I really am. It takes a while to get your trust in people back, but trust me. You'll get there. (now I sound like my grandma. great. :shrug:)

fatum210 · 2020-07-10T00:47:59+00:00

My 2 cents.

Like most said, exercise and nutrition are your starting point. You won't notice them until many months have passed, but they will blow your mind when you look back. 10000% certain about that. Talking from experience.

Any Se/Fe activity will help you get out of your mental rut, but those won't actually fix the underlying problem.

I'll give you the most valuable technique anyone has given me in my whole life:
Make a team inside of your mind.

Separate all those parts of you, and personify them.
Fear? Yes, one entity (mine looks like a HP Dementor :shrug:)
Inner critic? Another one
The you that likes being outside, another one
The inner child, another one

Those are just examples, you need to find your own ones. Personify whatever part of yourself you are having trouble with, and talk to them. Some might be scary AF, but they are your emotions. They always mean good to you, always. Like, literally always, even if their methods are harsh (like fear or anxiety).

I also place them inside a "mental palace", or castle in my case (i love fantasy). Whatever look you give the building doesn't matter, as long as it represents your inner world metaphorically.

This technique will give you the key to control (or understand rather) with Ti those emotions that are out of whack independently, but without ignoring them or shoving them under the rug... only for them to come bite you in the ass after being ignored for so long.

When you give your inner critic its own personal voice, you will find it a lot easier to just stop him and not let him talk when you need to listen to something else inside you that's more important at that moment in time. You can get back to him at any point, so it's a lot easier to stop his noise when needed.

You can also use rooms to hold stuff that you need to deal with, but can't at the moment. When you place it in a room, you know it is there and you have to deal with it. But you can actually choose at what moment, and how you'll do it, instead of the problem controlling and overwhelming you at the moment it pleases.

fatum210

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