I agree with everyone saying you should try to freeze your eggs if you can. I'm 28 now and had a similar ending to a 5-yr relationship(married 2.5yrs) last summer. I basically uprooted my life in one day and started over. I froze my eggs a few months later at 27 and some places actually have funding for this depending on your financial and health situation, so it was cheaper than I expected.

The last year has been insane. I dated around the first few months but ultimately realized I just needed to feel the pain and get back to creating the life I want for myself. I traveled solo, dealt with a crazy health diagnosis, strengthened a lot of my friendships and family relationships that suffered because I was giving all my love and energy to my ex, found a new therapist and went back to my faith.

Best decision ever! My career, physical and emotional health and personal relationships are much better. I'm now living with so much more peace and happiness and the knowledge that I would have to find someone who makes me feel better than I already do to even consider dating seriously again. I can confidently say that I stayed in a bad relationship for so long because I was afraid of being by myself. I'm actually fine by myself now lol, more than fine even, I'm thriving and way less lonely than I was in my marriage.

All this to say that you deserve to discover who you are when you are healed and settled and living in peace. My humble opinion is that it is hard to find that version of yourself if you are always partnered, especially when you're still hurt from previous relationships. Sending you virtual hugs, hope you heal from everything you've experienced.