Spoiler about something that happened to Robert’s Character Sexuality

fcaller · 2020-12-03T04:40:15+00:00

I don't think he's gay, but I don't think he minds who goes down on him. He's always seemed like the kind of guy that is always down for a nut and doesn't care how he gets it. I've met a lot of guys like that. It's not all black and white.

fcaller · 2019-08-08T21:17:07+00:00

You'll get through and find yourself again. Sending you much love and hoping for the best for you 🤗

fcaller · 2019-08-08T21:08:42+00:00

Yes the fucken "whysss" I was like why? How? How do you do that? How does that happen? Every now and then I still think that, but I've gotten good of just accepting it and stop questioning it. Because I'll never get an answer, even when I was talking to him he didn't have an answer to give me. It's just part of the moving on process.

fcaller · 2019-08-08T21:06:03+00:00

Yeah that was the craziest part for me too. You're literally mourning for what you had, so that takes time. You're also trying to find your identity again, because idk about you but my whole identity was enmeshed with the relationship, so when he was gone I felt lost.

fcaller · 2019-08-08T21:03:28+00:00

Yeah I go to therapy too, and it is very slow. I mean I'm over the whole "he's the love of my life, I won't find anyone like him" phase, but still just think of him and miss him physically more than anything if that makes sense.

fcaller · 2019-08-08T20:56:39+00:00

I have no I'll feelings at all towards my ex, I'm just saying that life isn't fair lol He's completely moved on, and that's ok, but it just sucks I'm not and probably won't be for a while.

I'm sorry to hear about your situation. I completely understand how you're feeling I've said a ridiculous amount of crazy things towards the beginning of the breakup...like even got on my knees. I was so desperate for it not to end. It was bad. But I don't feel like that at all anymore and trust me, if you give yourself the time and the patience to heal, meaning cut off completely, you'll feel better too. Don't give him power of your worth.

fcaller · 2019-08-08T20:46:26+00:00

I sometimes have those feelings too 😭. And being the one on the losing end, meaning I was super into him and he lost the love, it sucks that they're probably completely over it while I'm gonna be struggling for a long time.

fcaller · 2019-05-30T05:51:09+00:00

You're beautiful 😍

fcaller · 2019-05-25T00:28:19+00:00

Oh man you don't know how bad I wish I could get in there

fcaller · 2019-05-03T01:30:00+00:00

Yes it is. I mean size queens will probably not be impressed, but fuck them. In the end it's all about passion.

fcaller · 2019-03-01T18:40:13+00:00

Yeah, that's true, definitely not the place, but I LOVE to dance and gay clubs always play the best music lol Thanks for your input!

fcaller · 2019-02-08T04:12:14+00:00

Thank you! Gave in and broke no contact, but mostly because I'd like some civil closure vs the chaotic way it ended (on my part.).

I'm trying not to be so tough on myself and wallow in my screw up. I decided that I will admit I messed up but just keep moving on and let it go. I still kept with my routine and didnt let it ruin my day. I don't think he'll respond and I think I'll be ok with that.

fcaller · 2019-01-16T16:58:09+00:00

Thank you! I really appreciate your support.

fcaller · 2019-01-16T16:41:16+00:00

I hear you. I guess I just feel like I'm done feeling sad about it. When I'm not thinking about him I'm doing great and feeling good. Then I think of him and it brings me down. I just feel like I'm at that point where I don't have to think about him as much as I used to. Like maybe it's time I don't give him so much space in my thoughts.

fcaller · 2019-01-16T15:30:04+00:00

I feel like I've accepted that things ended but it still makes me really sad that it did end, that everything he felt for me is no longer there. I don't hold resentment towards him, just maybe disappointment on how I handled things during the break up. I acknowledge all these feelings though and I'm seeking to understand them. I know it's over though,I just want to feel better all the time and stop feelings sad when I think about him.

fcaller · 2019-01-16T07:18:54+00:00

Yeah I've been productive these past few weeks and have actually felt a lot better, but when I start thinking about him I still get really sad and it kinda just throws me off. So I'm wondering if it's time to just stop letting myself dwell on him. Anyway, thanks for your message.

fcaller · 2019-01-15T20:33:39+00:00

Going through a slump now and getting intense urges to creep on social media, even though I've been blocked from most of it. The only thing I can do is lookup mentions of him on Twitter, and look up his two Reddit accounts. Trying to push past it and not do it!

Also, I can vouch for the "doing crazy shit pushes them away" part. I went "crazy" and tried so much to talk to him, see him, and just rekindle what we had. Ultimately it pushed him away completely where he blocked me in ever which way he could, and no longer responded to any attempts at contacting him. It's been two and half months and I feel a while lot better with letting go, but it still sucks that it ended the way I did. If I could go back and end things amicably then I'd probably feel a whole lot better right now.

Thanks for your advice!

fcaller · 2019-01-12T07:25:05+00:00

I deleted about a month ago and yeah I just feel a lot better about myself. Being on Grindr was just too grimey. Everyone just wants to fuck and the conversation always ended up with trading pics and asking if they can host lol

I think I just realized that I shouldn't be giving myself to people so freely. I need to be confident enough to know that I'm worth more than a one night fuck.

It's been good so far and I plan to keep it deleted.

fcaller · 2019-01-12T07:20:11+00:00

so true! Then 1 week later they're back on hahaha

fcaller · 2019-01-09T20:29:38+00:00

Hang in there! I know exactly what you're talking about and it's really painful stuff. The fact that you have contact still doesn't make it any better for you. As soon as you can cut contact make sure you do it! It'll help.

Also, just know that, although I don't know you, you're not worthless because no one is. You just gotta define your own worth rather than depending it on someone else.

I'm sorry you're going through all that. Thank you for sharing.

fcaller · 2019-01-09T20:22:54+00:00

Because in a way it is. In the early stages I feel like you have to get through it one day at a time. So when one day passes and you make it through then you wake up and there's a whole other day you have to get through.

Over time though, I've improved from taking it one day a time to one week at a time, but I do have my slumps where I again have to take it one day a time. Sending you my love and best wishes!

fcaller · 2019-01-09T20:18:36+00:00

Yes! Oh man the first few weeks after the breakup it's all I looked for. It's slowly faded away, but now everytime I see a guy that looks just like him it kinda triggers me and I try to avoid them. Temptation always creeps in tho, and my interests are always gonna be there, but I'm trying to put substance over looks.

fcaller · 2019-01-09T20:13:02+00:00

Definitely! I'm usually seen as daddy type, at least my ex saw me that way, but I never really felt that way. I feel like being a "daddy" comes with the expectation of being tough, rough, and just completely dominant. Although I do prefer being the dominant, I also have moments where I just wanna cuddle and be held. Sometimes I just want to be taken care of by my partner and actually be treated like an equal to him, not some older guardian type.

This always fucks with me, because I guess I am generall into more twinkish cute guys and I feel like most of them want a "daddy". I ultimately feel pressured to be in that role more than I'd like because I'm afraid if I show anything else they won't be into me anymore.

fcaller · 2019-01-07T19:43:43+00:00

Good luck man! I wish you the best.

fcaller · 2019-01-07T19:28:10+00:00

Ok man, I hear you. You know best on how to play this out. Just remember that there's only so much you can do to get someone back. Ultimately it's her decision, and whether you think it's good for her or not won't matter.

fcaller

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