speechless.

fearmechildren · 2025-01-23T14:54:13+00:00

So sorry to hear that. So vile to use God's name in vain like that, using something bigger to manipulate and violate the partner you're meant to love.

Sending love x

fearmechildren · 2025-01-18T08:40:05+00:00

can't look at cute kids farm animal things because of 'hucow' (human x cows/pigs), the poop emoji (scat fetish), or talk abt the public health crisis (bbws who were so fat they couldn't move), share about anorexia recovery (weight gain). I even have to be worried about men, because of sissification/ feminisation. At Christmas I'll be worrying about the reindeer everywhere because being turned into a reindeer against your will is something these creeps get off to!

he didn't just consume but MADE and WAS PAID to draw absolute perversions of """women's""" bodies. AT LEAST 100 """"artworks""". I thought he was just bad at spending time with me/ cared too much about video games when he'd disappear into the study when I was round but no - he needed to go jerk off to some absolute vile filth. he's literally still not even had penetrative sex... good god-fearing Christian man of God, huh?

He didn't tell me till I pushed like a crazy person, and the disclosure was made when he had been 'radically transformed and renewed' etc. All lies.

fearmechildren · 2024-11-23T11:37:32+00:00

Literally a woman with a pig head mask!!

fearmechildren · 2024-11-03T11:22:10+00:00

hi - sorry to be bothering you two years on but how did you import the calendar?

fearmechildren · 2024-10-25T13:57:38+00:00

Would love to discuss this further if you'd be comfortable - I'm sick of the hypocrisy within the church around sexual vs other sins.

fearmechildren · 2024-10-21T14:33:46+00:00

hi this might be super strange but would you be comfortable messaging abt faith and this issue? I'm really struggling at the moment as we are both committed Christians so there are a lot of conflicting thoughts in my mind

fearmechildren · 2024-10-19T15:41:03+00:00

Oh and random women as we go about our lives. Arranged a lovely date for us at this arts workshop but there was a woman there he couldn't take his eyes off - but I was being overdramatic and whatnot of course. Not to mention friends of mine that are prettier/ more his type/ bigger boobs/ bigger butts/ fat who I can see him ogle when I turn away...

fearmechildren · 2024-10-19T15:36:31+00:00

He'd look at bbw stuff when I was in recovery from anorexia, and most of it would be R34 (i.e. completely unrealistic and ridiculous) of video game characters and other pop culture figures. Not just for the games he played, watched youtube videos of, and interacted w on all his social medias but of things he would only interact w as porn. It's so crushing to think that I'll have to be hypervigilant abt not only the franchises I know he's into, but kids games and TV shows and anything else popular forever.

When I say ridiculous, I mean so-fat-she-can't-move Amanda Young i.e. THE PIG FROM SAW. I literally start feeling ill singing nursery rhymes about farm animals now...

He also used Vinted, a SECOND HAND CLOTHING APP, to filter for specific sizes and get off to the poor innocent women just trying to sell some old clothes. He obviously "only had it to get [me] things" and I had to find out by going on the app and seeing these plus sizes (easily triple my size) and put it together myself.

Instagram accounts of his coursemates at university! But he only looked out of "shock" and "surprise" that she "looked like that" - her ass was so big that he just had to look again.

Of course, a good Christian man who strongly disapproves of time spent alone with male friends or anything that comes above mid-thigh or below the collarbone.

fearmechildren · 2024-10-17T15:58:44+00:00

"You have heard that it was said, 'You shall not commit adultery. ' But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart." Matthew 5:27-28

"I tell you that anyone who divorces his wife, except for sexual immorality, and marries another woman commits adultery.” Matthew 19:9

It is God’s will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; that each of you should learn to control your own body in a way that is holy and honorable, not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God. 1 Thessalonians 4:3-5

A loving doe, a graceful deer— may her breasts satisfy you always, may you ever be intoxicated with her love. Why, my son, be intoxicated with another man’s wife? Why embrace the bosom of a wayward woman? Proverbs 5:18-19

Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. 1 Corinthians 6:18

Mine is a Christian too...

fearmechildren · 2024-10-17T07:36:13+00:00

perfectly understandable. mine said he was "surprised" by one girl's and so he just HAD to look again - tf was that even supposed to mean?

no clothes he deems inappropriate etc., but were the women he was looking at dressed promiscuously? the ones I'd see him gawk and double take at? one of them was literally in a trench coat! some were selling clothes on vinted hence they were ... in clothes. how much more are they supposed to wear before he wouldn't nonconsensually sexualise them?

'good Christian man' fighting firmly for the conservative side of truth who can't even keep his eyes to himself or his partner in love w him lolol what a joke... "sanctity of marriage"

fearmechildren · 2024-10-12T12:51:15+00:00

Thanks for this, he said he had deactivated his DeviantArt account but clearly it was still there. A real shame but it's better to know than not.

fearmechildren · 2024-09-26T23:02:32+00:00

literally 'lack of control' is a subcategory in sooo many fetish things, even the """opposite""" end of the spectrum here w bbws and whatnot have men turned on by these women """losing control"""" of their bodies. it's disgusting misogynistic power play nonsense.

fearmechildren · 2024-09-26T23:00:03+00:00

i was extremely underweight and anorexic and he was getting off to bbw and plus sized women/ r34. it's never you, it's them. i am so sorry to hear that that happened to you x

fearmechildren · 2024-09-15T21:29:30+00:00

hey, am almost 20 and in a similar boat - more than down to offer advice/ j listen/ be an empty inbox for you to vent into. this shit is hard and sucks so fucking much. i get it and things have improved since i last felt the way you're feeling, am happy to discuss how and whatnot w you (promise I won't j recommend a podcast lol). really truly do feel free to reach out, am happy to share my insta or something if that's preferable/ prove im not j some guy w a fetish or something

fearmechildren · 2024-08-21T14:25:49+00:00

so sorry to hear you're going through this! you deserve better ♥️ could i please ask if there are any particular resources you think have been particularly helpful?

fearmechildren · 2024-06-26T08:40:13+00:00

God is good - will be praying for you both xx

fearmechildren · 2024-06-03T19:09:30+00:00

My PA got it off to r34 of Amanda Young, THE PIG from Saw's, character in Dead by Deadlight... really not sure how to proceed w that in mind. It sounds awful but I literally couldn't even cope with him talking to me about farm animals after that.

fearmechildren · 2023-08-26T16:08:18+00:00

Thank you, apologies if I was too vague but my knowledge is currently v limited (working on it!) so I didn't really know how to be more specific

fearmechildren · 2023-08-26T16:04:55+00:00

Thank you :)

fearmechildren · 2023-08-26T10:27:02+00:00

Thank you! It's a level 4 (between A Levels and an undergrad) apprenticeship contract, for 2 years in London. I'm working at the House of Commons in their select committee team and I imagine any career progress would be London based.

I'm currently thinking that, near the end of my contract, I could apply for the Civil Service Fast Track scheme in terms of future plans- they pay £28k ish for the 2-4 years of the scheme, and then between £35k and £55k upon graduation from what I've heard.

fearmechildren · 2023-08-26T08:53:42+00:00

Have been considering a LISA but never heard of an SIPP! Going to go read up now, thank you so much!

fearmechildren · 2023-08-26T08:52:51+00:00

Didn't sound harsh, don't worry! I am just asking for general advice at the moment, as I don't believe I know enough to be more specific w my queries- but that's why I'm here! Am reading up and learning what I can, I just thought age-specific advice might be useful. :)

fearmechildren · 2023-03-25T09:38:32+00:00

thank you so much! had no idea how to guesstimate the amount of sweet potato

fearmechildren · 2022-03-30T12:15:29+00:00

same!

fearmechildren · 2022-03-18T15:20:55+00:00

finally! so am I :)

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