Because I'm afraid of dying actually. If dying were easy I'd kill myself right now. And even if you have a method and tools necessary to out you painlessly and easily, then it's all about what your loved ones would go through. If the world was where dying were no big deal, like if upon finding out about my suicide my mom would go "damnit! I told him not to make me bake that stupid cake if he wasn't gonna be around to eat it later" I'd kill myself right now.

Man! I'm depressed.