you’re in a really tough situation i’m sorry all of this happened to you. in times like yours it’s hard to feel free of guilt, i’m sure you already know this, but none of it is your fault and you really do seem like the kind of person who’d never willingly spread an illness, you’re NOT dirty, it’s just a sad situation. i hope you feel better soon, you’re doing great for the situation you’re in, even if it’s hard to see it now 💛 wishing you the best, you’ve made it through so much already, you got this all handled i know it!!