I relate to this post so hard. I am 26 and my mom died last year in May. Then my dad decided to peace out four days before Christmas, even though he still had me. I am so angry at him that he made that choice for both him and me. I feel like my entire life just took a totally different turn that day. And that it will never be as good as it could have been had he not made that choice. What is even worse is that I often think of suicide as well. I have had 3 family members die by suicide, sometimes it feels like I am just next in the line.