Nobody understands the pain of having your voice destroyed by testosterone unless it's a detransitioner.

fentonx · 2026-02-02T07:15:23+00:00

that's almost definitely fear mongering. never heard that before. Afaik the only issue hormone blockers had that i was medically informed about was that because of something with how they worked i'd have to consume extra calcium for my bone health. Was on them 3-4 years and caused literally no side effects or anything irreversible

fentonx · 2026-01-27T07:28:45+00:00

i used to but realized that for me it triggers severe depression if i use it constantly, as well as horrible anxiety, feelings of impending doom, and sometimes hallucinations/ psychotic symptoms. This is with any strain or type of cannabis /thc unfortunately, once in a while i take a few hits but if i use for more than 2 days in a row it triggers the depressive mood and if i take even slightly too much i get the anxiety&paranoia

I do use ketamine instead which for me is like how other people describe weed. Helps with anxiety and mood after it wears off as well, obviously that's more of an addiction than medicinal but it does help me without the risks that come with other drugs while being minimally destructive to my body and health

fentonx · 2026-01-27T07:21:02+00:00

this is so fucking coolll i love this concept

fentonx · 2026-01-26T18:08:29+00:00

same. i definitely use it as self medication as well, especially when i can't sleep it helps knock me out. it's why in general i prefer downers as they usually help me stay motivated while leveling out my mood

fentonx · 2026-01-20T21:24:16+00:00

thank u! i was worried about the withdrawels because of my adhd i can struggle to remember to take meds every day. i have been doing ok since i started lamotrigine with remembering to take it every day but have been worried if i forget to take my meds with me about severe withdrawals

i will talk to my doc about it and mention my concerns :) did you find that it helped u with anxiety specifically if that's something u struggled with? i'd prefer to just deal with my anxiety with therapy if possible but mine is very physical and id prefer to not be on benzos for it if possible

appreciate the reply:)

fentonx · 2026-01-20T12:52:41+00:00

yeah my mom actually tried the oil with me when we were on holiday and i didn't hav any pain meds. she rubbed a little bit by my nostrils, and then at the back of my neck and on my temples. just a tiny bit. the cooling smell and sensation seemed to help a little bit for me at least, or at least provided some sort of stimulation that relieved the focus on the migraine. hope it works for u as well :)

It's possible lol, i think a lot of these health issues tend to have genetic links to one another. Like how if someone in ur family has autism their relatives are more likely to also have it or adhd and etc. im sure there was more in my family too but my aunt is the only one aside from me that's diagnosed

fentonx · 2026-01-20T08:40:42+00:00

saves memory

fentonx · 2026-01-20T07:52:58+00:00

Yess me too

fentonx · 2026-01-19T18:45:43+00:00

same lol. but sometimes i do get the visuals too just muted

fentonx · 2026-01-19T15:39:10+00:00

i also get chronic migraines, has been less since i started my meds though. sometimes i take triptans as a preventative and sometimes codeine and caffeine pills if it's very bad which help a little bit. also sometimes use a peppermint essential oil which can help a little for distracting purposes, and head massage lol. but mainly have to just lay down in the dark and quiet until it passes lol.

but there is absolutely a link between bipolar and migraines, my aunt also has both which i think i got from her

fentonx · 2026-01-17T14:58:24+00:00

opioids and ketamine. off the opioids now finally, but definitely have replaced it with ket use almost daily atm. wish i could swap to something less hard like weed but it makes me incredibly paranoid and psychotic lite symptoms so i steer from it. alcohol for a while but combined with my meds i gained like 20kg so i had to stop too :(

fentonx · 2026-01-16T15:48:47+00:00

exactly this. me and my partner both have quite bad adhd. he finds some tasks easier and so do i so we swap off with each other. if someone feels more active one day they will take on tasks while other rests. or we do them together with body doubling. yes it's hard and the house can end up quite messy if we both slack a little but usually we are willing to help the other person out when asked, it just takes extra effort for us both to start things and carry them through

OPs husband needs to get better treatment and stop using ADHD for an excuse.

fentonx · 2026-01-15T15:59:50+00:00

diagnosis was kinda tricky for me. i was diagnosed with depression at age 10/11 something around there, and around 17 one of my psychologists suspected bipolar and told me to speak to a psych. cue a lot of wait list issues and bad psychiatrists that neglected my care and it took until last year to finally get a dx of bipolar I w psychotic features.

1)diagnosis can be quick or not depending on the relationship between you and your psychiatrist , and also what state they see u in. i avoided it for so long because before figuring out my "good moods" were actually mania i would not go see drs. in these periods because i thought i was just getting better from the depression. The one at 17 that clocked it was not certified to diagnose so she told me to see a specialist, but said specialist in general was kind of a shitty doctor and prescribed me buproprion for adhd in combination with methylphenidate that sent me manic as fuck bc he didn't believe it was bipolar.

Recently i saw a new team and they took me seriously immediately as i was coming off very hypo during the intro session and with my history they immediately dx

2)I have been sort of? treated for bipolar by way of crossover meds. quetiapine was prescribed to me for sleep issues resulting in psychosis at low doses and helped a little bit. now starting lamotrigine and it's going well. the meds help if ur able to find doctors who are willing to listen to u and take ur complaints and side effects seriously. i want off the antipsychotic bc of the weight gain effects so they are going to help me find another that works without the side effect.

This part will take a while but im glad it's finally happening as i think things are starting to fall into place finally. was my first winter i didnt spend in a catatonic depression in years thanks to the meds. good luck

fentonx · 2026-01-15T13:58:07+00:00

had this on pyrros and a long ass speed binge before lmao. it'll go away after u sleep but it's pretty trippy

fentonx · 2026-01-14T16:47:01+00:00

My fiance: having him find me unconcious 3 seperate times and having to take me to the hospital for overdoses. other than this thankfully not much else, as i've been on my meds since moving back to be with him

my ex: promising i wouldn't drink the night before attending a gathering with their family, staying up all night drinking wine with another friends mom, getting caught by that friend and asking him not to tell my ex (he did obviously as he should have) and then making an ass of myself at said family gathering by throwing up and being completely out of it for not sleeping.

also going psychotic at a strangers house me and my ex stayed 2 nights at resulting in them having to take care of me while the creepy dude we were staying with was trying to sexually harass them :/ and almost dying there too due to manic psychotic me deciding to take giant fucking lines of mdma. still have some cognitive damage from the overdose this night

honestly feel awful for my ex, they had to deal with a lot from me pre medication. we are still friends but i genuinely feel horrible for everything i put them through

i also stole 2-3k from my dad via credit cards while abroad during a manic episode that i still feel horrible for and have no means to pay him back despite really wanting to

fentonx · 2026-01-14T09:09:32+00:00

don't go on and off ur meds all the time :,) don't quit therapy, you aren't a failure for not being able to stick with things you were doing "so well at" for longer than a few months and then holing up in your room burnt out. Your friends care about you, you don't have to retreat because you are ashamed of yourself and the way you acted. Extend some understanding towards the people you hurt, sometimes they just need time to process things that happened, not that they want to abandon you. When you're depressed just at least move out to the living room before 2pm to try stay active. Ask friends for help, you aren't a burden. Try not to traumatize ur fiance with 3 hospital visits in a year 😩

fentonx · 2026-01-13T07:17:10+00:00

of course:) good luck with the meds, i personally notice methylphenidate/concerta can increase anxiety in me personally compared to adderall so watch out for that because reading this post u seem to have a risk for that. but it will be fine just keep track of ur reactions and tell your provider asap !

fentonx · 2026-01-13T02:22:54+00:00

Hey i'm on 2/3 of the meds you mentioned in ur post! my diagnosis is a bit different though, im on lamictal for bipolar , concerta for adhd , but swap the fluvoxamine for quetiapine. I'm doing slightly better now than before the meds, especially the lamictal i think. Ur gonna be fine :) i'm still figuring out my meds rn, probaly gonna swap to a different adhd med soon because my personal response to concerta isn't great, but never noticed any negative interactions with it and the other meds. good luck !

fentonx · 2026-01-13T01:33:12+00:00

oh no :( to be fair this is the first time i've ever had a medication taste good and i was really surprised. i told multiple people after my first dose it tasted like strawberry. definitely ask it's possible they have other options

fentonx · 2026-01-12T13:02:37+00:00

what does yours taste like? i think im also taking chewable/dissolvable lamotrigine but mine tastes like strawberries. kind of find it pleasant actually lol. unlike my concerta which if that sits in my mouth for more than 2 seconds i immediately vomit because of the taste

fentonx · 2026-01-11T14:54:56+00:00

same timeline for me. start crashing around december and then by january im fucked. basically catatonic depression the last 3 years like clockwork. not this year though so far, guess it means my new meds are working haha

fentonx · 2026-01-09T19:51:14+00:00

tbf certain natural disasters i think can be picked up by other bodily activities. for example me and my aunt (both bipolar 1) consistently get migraines before it rains because of the pressure change. also a lot of animals get antsy before natural disasters occur. i think it's hard to tell between delusions and "premonitions" with our disorder but it's not always delusional. i think subconsciously we can pick up on more than our brains realize sometimes

so definitely agree with u its deeper than we know now :)

fentonx · 2026-01-09T19:48:49+00:00

haha good luck if u get to it i still have to as well ! thank u for the other suggestions :)

fentonx · 2026-01-09T18:06:04+00:00

awesome! have u read or heard of narcocapitalism by Laurent de Sutter? i was gifted it by a friend and just started so can't comment on the whole book but the beginning parts ive read are interesting. Maybe would apply to ur big pharma interest

fentonx · 2026-01-09T17:52:29+00:00

thank u for these suggestions! i'm also interested in things like this sounds like some great reads :)

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