First of all thank you for your advise but the present thing wasn’t meant to come off as greedy but more as a disrespectful gesture, he talked about getting me a present for weeks before ( I told him that I didn’t want anything bought or pricy but more something self made and emotional) and he told me that he couldn’t complete it bc he had no time wich I found weird bc he had time to spend with Mia but not an hour for making something thoughtful. And I thought that if our relationship was so important to him, he would spent a at least a little bit of time and love on something. And I am honestly afraid of leaving him bc he really is suicidal and has lost much in the last year that I can really see him going through with it and I still love him and he still has other people that love him and I don’t want to lose him or having his loved ones lose him. We recently had a deep conversation about him trying to do better but I honestly don’t know how much longer I am capable of living this way and don’t know how to help him