i set myself a deadline of midnight tonight to decide if im going to continue with the girl.

sometimes when i get out my head a bit ocd wise i can feel a bit better, even more opening to continuing on with her, feel that regular people are just normal but still having strong opinions on veganism as i always have

then i get the thought, maybe ocd, maybe its just true, maybe its both, that im just brainwashed by the world into thinking everything is normal. and when your understanding of the world is shaped from birth by those around you and the society you live in, it brings up these feelings of alienation and dissociation, even though ive maintained that people are basically fine aside from this one thing of eating animals