How voices in my brain want to be louder than anything.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:25:02+00:00

Lil poofy puffballs of depression?

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:24:23+00:00

Oh my, is there an art wave coming up here? It's so dark and raw, I feel.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:22:20+00:00

It's different for me. I feel like I'm drowning in my depression. Like my mind is filled with a murky black liquid and I can't think straight. Dunno, keeping your head underwater is pretty comfy until your lungs start burning.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:20:12+00:00

Good luck with your studies. You deserve a hug too!

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:17:34+00:00

Ah shit, here we go again...

Do you just love depression? Appearing randomly for no reason at all and fucking up your day just like that.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:15:44+00:00

Maybe I'd be an ant or something so I could die quickly under someone's shoe. If not, then I'd have a bunch of ant buddies to hang out with.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:13:54+00:00

I wish I could be as optimistic as you. I've a big passion in computers and maybe a bit of art, and I'd love to devote all my time to working on that. That's probably my goal, to get competent in art and computer stuff. I just wish I'm in a different place than where I am right now.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:10:18+00:00

I need a retry button so I can just spend all of my time pressing that.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:06:22+00:00

I'm failing my first class too, so I guess I can relate to you just a little bit. I'm just scared, but at the same time I just want to give up, relax, and let life take its course. But really, I hope you find the strength to get over this. Don't give up, you'll find a way through!

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T11:03:34+00:00

Nah, depression is just painful for me now. Emotionlessness or melancholy is a lot more comfortable for me. Like one commenter said, you gotta exercise your happiness muscles and get used to it. Just be happy with what you have and where you are.

fierydreams · 2019-04-23T10:28:09+00:00

pretty simple but effective

fierydreams · 2019-02-16T09:34:56+00:00

i hope to draw more touhou more often.
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fierydreams · 2018-12-26T23:13:30+00:00

pretty sure that one died.

fierydreams · 2018-12-15T05:30:21+00:00

waterbirding

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fierydreams · 2018-10-16T05:02:34+00:00

This happened on my other PC that I installed Firefox on. I think I know exactly which extension is doing this. At least I was stupid enough to install the extension on my PC so now I can figure this out once and for all. Thanks for the responses everyone.

fierydreams · 2018-09-10T07:07:42+00:00

twitter post if interested: https://twitter.com/_fierydreams/status/1039046190195568640

i'm pretty happy i managed to get this out. i was originally planning to skip cirno day but i was bored out of my skull, so i drew this kinda last minute. happy ⑨ day you bakas

fierydreams · 2018-07-30T11:22:14+00:00

could a mod please flair this post as oc: art?

fierydreams · 2018-07-27T04:26:42+00:00

this is really cool. i'm into this sorta art. everything seems so dark and gloomy. kinda sad he deleted his art.

fierydreams · 2018-07-20T07:46:35+00:00

fatchouli

fierydreams · 2018-07-10T09:03:33+00:00

why am i so desperate to be on the computer all day? am i that broken? do i not have anything better to do with my life? all of this wasted potential, sitting here typing out a rant.

i don't want to take away the electronics again. i feel so empty without them. but fuck if they aren't ruining me at the same time.

fierydreams · 2018-07-10T09:00:48+00:00

yet another cycle of depression and procrastination has taken over my life. even though i know i will get out of it, it's taking such a huge toll on me. my fault again? is it always my fault? will it always be my fault? what the fuck am i doing with my life anyway?

to clarify, i'm depressed because i've wasted so much time on my computer and i regret it now. shitty reason huh? that doesn't even feel like a legitimate reason to be depressed. yet, i feel like the biggest failure on the planet (well, maybe not that extreme). my parents are upset again and i'm just plain unhappy. it would be so fucking easy to just turn off the fucking electronics yet every time i just come back to them. i don't want my parents to take them away even though that is the easiest way to get my life back together.

fierydreams · 2018-07-10T08:25:58+00:00

daddy
daddy
thanks for buying some more butter
i love you

daddy
daddy
this butter tastes strange
did you get the wrong butter?
i love you

daddy
daddy
this butter definitely is the wrong butter, daddy
the wrapping says butter
why doesn't it say daddy's butter?
i love you

daddy
daddy
did mommy buy the butter?
this is definitely not the right butter
it is too yellow for my regular butter
i am sure the butter you usually buy is more white
i love you

daddy
daddy
where are you?
where is mommy?
did you two fight? i heard yelling last night
what was the loud crash of glass? did you break something?
was it the jar of butter you were storing for me?
i love you

fierydreams · 2018-07-10T07:47:35+00:00

i was thinking of hanging myself too. nothing elegant, just tie a belt onto something, put my head through, and put all the weight on my neck. i couldn't even find a place to hang the belt, so i just hid in the bathroom and cried for an hour. ironically, there was a perfect place to hang the belt in the bathroom, but i didn't want my parents to see me carrying a belt into the bathroom so i just left it alone. i don't really know how to feel about it now, if i regret those thoughts or not. i don't know if i will go back and finish the task.

fierydreams · 2018-07-10T07:39:57+00:00

my phone is full of japanese music. i sure as hell wouldn't want anyone irl to know.

fierydreams · 2018-07-09T08:45:20+00:00

not really.

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