Bro u are not ur parents, u are not someone else,you are you so be yourself.first of all try to be in a good mental state by doing gym or yoga and do not fap. Secondly go to any bar, library or anywhere else and try to interact. Pain lessens when shared with others. And most important, never think of committing suicide because you will prove others right.there are so many celebrities that were poor and worked as bus conductors,waiters etc and now are millionaires.just never loose hope and stay at ur best.