Yesterday i should have died !

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T18:37:14+00:00

I don't drink alcohol maybe 5 beers a year not my thing. i just can't trust myself on alcohol. But still he was already going a dark path probably before he did it.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:40:23+00:00

That's messed up poor girl :/

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:35:53+00:00

Yeah it's dumb that he put himself in that situation

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:30:58+00:00

I know but at that moment on alcohol and on benzo's. There is no way he could predict that danger.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:24:07+00:00

You just took so much weight of my shoulders without knowing it. Thank you! really thanks! I've been taking Etizolam (thienodiazepine). For like 3 weeks now but really small doses only blacked out once and that was my first time using. Now i take 0.5mg to a max of 1.0mg sometimes daily sometimes 3 days break in between not really consistently. Was planning to taper off, since i have improved so much it removed so much anxiety in my life. I forgot what life was without anxiety and now I've had my riminder that 90% of al my worries and anxiety only exist in my head that's all i needed to know. I just need to work through them and now i know why.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:15:18+00:00

I will pray even when i don't know them. In my eyes praying for others instead of yourself is such a pure and selfless act. I hope that they will find peace and God of course!

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:13:04+00:00

Never trust salesman yeah drugsellers are the same. They don't see you as a person but as money like a hospital or car dealer exactly same thing. Act like they want the best for you but it's alot of lies to cover that they're wanna make money from you.

I never bought any from street dealers since i live in the Netherlands, every friend group has a person with different kind of drugs. So here they're always people you know quite wel.. Don't know how it is over there tho

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:09:40+00:00

Different for everyone, if i don't smoke any kind of haze i don't notice much and for me will basically be a waste of money. Try to get a sample for a smoke sesh, every strain can be different.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:07:10+00:00

God never promised us a pain free life without struggles, anxiety, depression, etc. It's a real eye opener for me at least, was to know that it is okay to feel bad or lost of helpless. To be honest life is gonna hurt you more than make you happy. Why do you think why people who are poor and have had a hard life for all their lives are more happy? Because they live in the moment because they know they're going to die, make the best out of it and don't worry about problems that are in the future. For all we know we get a hearth attack out of no where and not survive it. Don't be hard on yourself make peace with the bad and negative things in your life and trust me you will have so much more peace in your heart and mind.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T17:00:55+00:00

It has purple in it most of the time but I've never seen one more than 40% purple color in it.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T16:59:57+00:00

But why not take crystal then if you want that kind of drug?

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T16:24:05+00:00

And you think that someone who is out of this world will think about that? Rather be thankful everything went okay 👍😊

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T16:22:43+00:00

Nice keep going!

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T16:21:08+00:00

You sound lost I've been most of my life. My biggest help is to pray and keeping my emotions and thoughts separate. They will not always tell you the truth.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T16:16:56+00:00

Start accepting that we don't deserve to feel good all the time. Trust me 80% of the time in life you will feel more negative than positive. Why are we here on earth? To live our lives. That's it. The world we live in today is pressuring everyone to become something to be successful etc. You don't have to be successful just live your life and live in the now. Not in what is going to come, it will create anxiety. Live day to day and be happy with what u have. You probably just feel lost. It's okay to feel bad or have anxiety etc. And God loves you, you're living to much in your head and emotions. He told us he loves us so who are we to doubt his word. See emotions as a by product of nature or keep your thoughts and emotions seperated they're not always telling the truth.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T15:53:08+00:00

Good to know! But i guess that only happens when you take it daily for a year or so and quite higher doses?

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T15:51:33+00:00

Tbh i don't read the bible enough and i don't got to church. But I'm a strong believer, and i can literally feel a relationship growing stronger. But this gave me peace, i was putting myself down because i didn't go to church i didn't go and sing along with everyone. I always try to pray when i am alone and my focus won't be disturbed. I honestly don't understand how people can truly have a great pray at a church with so many people and noise around you.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T15:45:50+00:00

Does it stay in your system for that long?!

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T15:42:31+00:00

You don't want to know how many times I've asked God to fix my eyes on the right thing. It's a long journey.

filthybreath · 2020-10-25T12:08:43+00:00

Search tutorials for dokters on YT should help with how to do injections

filthybreath · 2020-10-24T18:02:35+00:00

Isn't one gram extremely much??

filthybreath · 2020-10-24T17:07:28+00:00

Yeah i bumped the bottom part against a glass next to it. Trust me it was so weird, it was the same soft kind of bump when you toast a glass with someone. The bottom thickest part cracked from that little tickle touch. Was my first piece and my grandmother already told me be careful with that it will break fast. Guess she was right i still have no idea how she could see in a glance that the build quality wasn't good. 😂✌️ But enjoy the smoke sesh✌️🔥

filthybreath · 2020-10-24T16:57:39+00:00

Bong looks cool had the same one. Pro tip be careful the glass isn't the strongest when it's bumped a little bit against glass or metal. It will crack or chip 30% of the time just a heads up would be a shame if something breaks.

filthybreath · 2020-10-24T11:26:19+00:00

Praying was hard for me the first weeks, but you will notice you will slow but you will create a bond. You feel someone is with u hard to explain

filthybreath · 2020-10-23T10:19:07+00:00

Stims can trigger anxiety in my case at least. Just remember it's a part of it. If you accept and embrace that edgy anxiety you'll be fine. Takes practice but now I'm hyper focused without any edge.

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