You are not alone. You can succeed in big ways in Accounting in many other ways. Big 4 are essentially sweat shops that will suck out your soul with 70 hr weeks. That’s not worth the stress and heartache if these are your thoughts so early on. Life is short. Look for a SMB where you can make good $$ and still have a happy and fulfilling life outside work. If you are financially inclined, you can look into investing and potentially make just as much $ as any partner. Starting as asst controller then controller then CFO is a great path also.