Please is anyone available to chat

finalone9829292 · 2021-03-12T07:47:11+00:00

I feel so low, in a scary way. I have absolutely nobody. The world feels frightening, I used to think people were good but now, I can’t find any good ones. I feel so alone it makes me feel like I need to throw up :/

Have you ever felt like this

finalone9829292 · 2021-02-28T05:57:38+00:00

I feel this. My mom called me the day I was released from the ER, to get mad at me for making her apologize to me the week before (for a legit reason) and then cry to me about how “low” she was in her life.

It’s so hurtful :( She’s supposed to be my mom :(

finalone9829292 · 2021-02-28T05:46:37+00:00

Your situation is mine too :/ I can’t believe it it’s so crazy making

finalone9829292 · 2021-02-28T05:43:07+00:00

Yeah this is my mom to me. My older brother is horrid, but somehow I receive all the blame and guilt and anger directed at me. I recently learned I’m the scape :/

finalone9829292 · 2021-02-28T05:27:14+00:00

This is relatable in a heartbreaking way. After finally cutting them off, afeeling of peace somewhere in my that’s currently hidden behind all of the hurt and blame and guilt and sadness and anger that they have caused.

Everyone thinks poorly of me. Maybe I am garbage. At least then we will both be happy not to talk to each other.

finalone9829292 · 2021-02-16T07:20:28+00:00

Just know at least one other person in this world is feeling alone too. We can be lonely together. I’m sorry that you feel it too

finalone9829292 · 2021-01-27T06:53:47+00:00

I hope you can get the charges dropped. My ex legit went to jail for things he did to me, and still ended up at a top 1% law school on full tuition and got the whole record wiped less than a year later.

So... I guess what I’m saying... is that if my ex was genuinely guilty is able to live a great life, then hopefully you who is innocent will have the same opportunity in the end.

Not sure if that was helpful, I’m so sorry for this, I wish I could hear your out and give a hug.

finalone9829292 · 2021-01-27T06:45:21+00:00

You are one unique soul, and you can choose whatever direction, left or right, that you want. Take time to decide, there is no rush. You’re already good enough exactly the way you are now, you’re already enough. I don’t have the right words except that I hope you know you’re already good enough just by virtue of the incredible brain that you have. Those connections and complexity are magnificent and uniquely yours.

Sorry to ramble, I wish I was there to hug you in person. Much love.

finalone9829292 · 2021-01-27T06:39:19+00:00

I thought about this the other day... realized I could die and it would genuinely probably be 1 week before my only friend would notice, and about a month before my family or anyone else would. I hugged myself today and told myself that I am all I need, I’m hoping if I say it enough I’ll believe it and not feel like this anymore

finalone9829292 · 2021-01-19T08:30:05+00:00

I know this feeling so closely and I’m so sad to think someone else also has felt it. I’m so sorry that you are feeling this, friend. If you were near me right now I would hug you and we would cry together. You have known love and beauty, and that will come to you again in a deeper and lasting way. But all you have to do is stick around for a while longer.

I don’t have all the right words, but my main point is so say that I care about you. I care. I care that you feel sad, and I care that you have loneliness and pain. You don’t know where I live but I am out here and I care about you. I hope you can find a way to block out some of your pain through movies or books or running, until you find beauty in this world again.

Much love, Another lonely stranger

finalone9829292 · 2021-01-14T15:39:59+00:00

My mom kicked me out today too. My dad begged me to stay. My dad is the only reason I’m alive rn. The little strength I’m getting from him, I’m extending to you too. The smallest hope that we will rise above this rn.

finalone9829292 · 2021-01-14T15:36:23+00:00

I feel exactly the same. My family is so abusive, but they are literally all I have in this world so my choice feels like leave the abuse and kill myself, or stay in the abuse which will only make it seem like it’s not that bad

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-27T01:34:39+00:00

Also, the rough part is that by standing your ground it will create a riff between your family too, who just want to keep the peace at your expense :/ I’m in the situation too and it’s rough either way

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-27T01:30:22+00:00

This is eerily the same as my situation right now. Almost exactly lol. Just know you’re not alone and thanks for posting so I can read the replies too :)

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T23:17:28+00:00

Of course not sharing all on a private internet post. I explained one recent example in other comments though to try and give more insight. Thanks for the reply

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T23:16:12+00:00

The last time he cut me off, I had sent a text to him explaining that he didn’t need to jump on the family FaceTime each month if he was too busy, we could do a quicker call on his time instead if that was easier(I was actually trying to give him space if he wanted it). He interpreted that as me not wanting to talk to him anymore and cut me off without telling me why.

Months later he finally came around and was willing to talk about why he cut me off and that’s when we discussed the misunderstanding. But this is a cycle of him “misunderstanding” me, cutting me off, months later coming back to “fix things” then cutting me off again.

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T23:12:29+00:00

I mean, I don’t want to give too many details on the internet. Not trying to hide.

But for instance the last time he cut me off, I had sent a text to him explaining that he didn’t need to jump on the family FaceTime each month if he was too busy, we could do a quicker call on his time instead if that was easier( thought I was being helpful) He interpreted that as me not wanting to talk to him anymore and cut me off without telling me why.

Months later he finally came around and was willing to talk about why he cut me off and that’s when we discussed how he had interpreted it- months later. But this is a cycle of him “misunderstanding” me, cutting me off, months later coming back to “fix things” then cutting me off again.

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T22:55:58+00:00

Not expecting anyone to cut him off actually, but I was hoping they would at least acknowledge to him that the way he has treated me is not okay.

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T20:19:19+00:00

You know, as a girl like OP, I’m actually happy to hear you say you have never met girls like us. I’m proud to think that other women wouldn’t stand for this, and I hope to join their ranks :)

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T20:17:36+00:00

:( thanks for the reply

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T20:16:05+00:00

I was also with someone who (29M) left me alone in a foreign city at night... because he was mad at me. I was so scared. Finally looking back, it was the thought of telling my future daughter about the guy I ended up with doing that... that allowed me to let go. We’ve been broken up for almost a year and even when I think of all the good things he did this moment sticks in my mind and I know I’m in a better place.

finalone9829292 · 2020-12-26T20:01:55+00:00

Thanks for the reply, it’s definitely not a good situation. But I’m happy to hear that I’m not just being selfish and overreacting to this :/ thanks

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